Rosa

I want to update something in between. Are any of you still reading? Or should I conclude it?

Thank you so much for 8,300 reads. Every single one of you I love so deeply. I hope these poems have found you full of love and light and joy. If you've been rocking with me since 2015 I hope you're growing and loving the person you're becoming. I'm sorry I haven't written anything for a long time, I hope to write some new stuff soon. I love you all so so much! I will try to be on here a lot more.
          
          God bless you all.
          
          All my Love,
          Rosa.

I feel like the boom of social media, and most importantly the expansion of the ego outside of the self, and into the wider world on a less grand scale such as the celebrity or the politician has left me feeling greatly dissatisfied and unhappy with my life. I am only 19, but I feel like I should’ve created my masterpiece, been on broadway, curated an exhibition, founded a charity, found love even. But I sit here, in the smallest room in my home, with no power to write, or to even create. But I believe in God. And that’s a weird thing to say after such a reflection, but I believe in the bible and what it says about me. And it says a lot. Some things scary and hard to accept, but a lot of other things that are good, and that I need to keep close to myself. The ego has always been a key ingredient in the destruction of great people. So, today, I am going to think of something other than ME. I am recognising that putting it simply being born wasn’t my idea, if it could’ve been, I would’ve chosen not to be. But it was God’s. And I know Jesus has a plan for putting me HERE. For giving me the talent I have. So I have to trust in His Plan, His Process. And leave it all up to him. So, I guess today, if you’re feeling pretty worthless, remember that God’s love is more important than your ego. Yahweh Shammah even in the darkness of your insecurity.
          
          Have a good day guys. God bless.

I am I am I am I am.
          - Sylvia Plath.

Check out the new chapter of SIB!

Things I want to clear up regarding SIB:
          
          1.Emeka is under the care of her aunt. Yet she does not live with her aunt, she lives in her family home.
          
          2. I don't know where the story is set. Its somewhere in America, where it is hot, and there are freeways with deserts. (Please don't correct me when I get intersections, state locations, town locations wrong... I know what I'm doing. It's America but its not.)
          
          3. She takes classes with seniors because she's smart. She's a junior at HS.
          
          4. If you're up to date (well done!) don't ask me why she isn't having crying fits because her parents died. People deal with grief differently. Emeka is a silent quiet, internal type of person. She bottles things up and swallows them down. Grief can come in the chime of silence and hum of life moving on.
          
          5. She's nigerian! Igbo to be exact. 
          
          6. Xavier is a cross between a young Keanu Reeves and a young jude law. He's also latino... not black, not white, not mixed. 
          
          7. Emeka suffers from depression. 
          
          8. When I wrote this book I wanted to have the main character to succumb to their illness, I wanted something "real". But the whole point of literature... the whole point of SIB is to affirm courage and grace under pressure. To provide respite to those who are going through the same thing.
          
          9. I take reading requests! Don't hesitate to contact me.
          
          10. I will no longer be writing mature scenes. This style of prose no longer aligns with my faith, or who I am as a person.
          
          11. A new chapter will be up this week! 
          
          12. I hope you enjoy.

so, I've written a new chapter for SIB but it's not very good.

hey sweeets, it would b greatly appreciated if you read my latest stpry and left some feedback please & thank you.

 #646 in poetry. God I'm getting there.

I'm still here.