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I know I fcked up a lot of times just within this month. I know I should be getting my pace back and my shit altogether but sometimes, it's just too hard especially when you slowly try to change who you are just to fit in to what they think of you. and I have to remind myself everyday to be myself. but even i cant say who I really am. and it's just hard for me to keep up everything once again. just so I watch how all the black seeds fruit an unpleasant scene. I am not ready to see how it'll end to be. but I hope I wont lose anyone anymore in the process. i''m trying to stop myself. and i'm sorry.