whisperbunny-x

Does anyone else struggle to comprehend themself having a body? Like, how they don't feel connected to their body, but not in a dissociation way, like your mind leaving you.
          	
          	Rather, like a feeling of being something else trapped within some defining physical form you feel doesn't belong to you.
          	
          	At first, I thought it was my species dysphoria, or my gender dysphoria, or my body dysphoria. But it hasn't been that, it seems. I'm finding myself not wanting any body at all.
          	
          	Ever since I was a kid, I would look in the mirror and think "that's not me, it's too.. present. I can't see my face outside of reflections and that feels wrong. My body feels too heavy, all the time no matter what. I don't think this is what I am.." and I would tell other children how it felt and they would be very concerned.
          	
          	I don't know if this is normal, and it's scaring me a little...
          	
          	Welp! I have something to talk to my therapist about, woo!

WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 well having an idea of something like that is better than not knowing anything, so that’s good!!
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
          	  Therapist said it might be Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder (DP/DR). So, at least I have an idea now.
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
          	  Thank you for the help, but that's not it- I am very much alive and stuff, haha.
          	  Thank you though. I'll talk to my therapist about it, so don't worry.
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WonderGirl1059

Howdy :D
          
          I feel like it’s been ages :3 how’ve you been???

WonderGirl1059

@WhisperBunny_X that’s so REAL of you, I do the same thing
            also if you want to use tumblr dms instead of wattpad you’d have to follow me because it won’t allow me to dm you if we’re not mutuals
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            Raaaa mwahahah, found you >:)
            Fair enough, lol- I intentionally sleep my day away to stay up at night cuz I just fw nighttime more, lmao
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WonderGirl1059

@WhisperBunny_X also we IGNOREE the fact that it’s 2:30 AM I had a monster earlier today and I’m also writing a oneshot so I have VALID REASON TO BE AWAKE,,
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WonderGirl1059

Hi hi
          uh
          I can’t remember but you don’t happen to be in the Danganronpa fandom by any chance are you
          Just asking cuz of a new hyperfixation

WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 that's a compliment btw
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WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 it's an anime but it's also a series of games :3 I wasn't sure if you'd know it or not but you seem like someone who might like the concept n stuff
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            I am not :/
            I'm sorry, but maybe I'll check it out-
            Is it a book show, or..?
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whisperbunny-x

Does anyone else struggle to comprehend themself having a body? Like, how they don't feel connected to their body, but not in a dissociation way, like your mind leaving you.
          
          Rather, like a feeling of being something else trapped within some defining physical form you feel doesn't belong to you.
          
          At first, I thought it was my species dysphoria, or my gender dysphoria, or my body dysphoria. But it hasn't been that, it seems. I'm finding myself not wanting any body at all.
          
          Ever since I was a kid, I would look in the mirror and think "that's not me, it's too.. present. I can't see my face outside of reflections and that feels wrong. My body feels too heavy, all the time no matter what. I don't think this is what I am.." and I would tell other children how it felt and they would be very concerned.
          
          I don't know if this is normal, and it's scaring me a little...
          
          Welp! I have something to talk to my therapist about, woo!

WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 well having an idea of something like that is better than not knowing anything, so that’s good!!
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            Therapist said it might be Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder (DP/DR). So, at least I have an idea now.
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            Thank you for the help, but that's not it- I am very much alive and stuff, haha.
            Thank you though. I'll talk to my therapist about it, so don't worry.
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whisperbunny-x

https://photos.app.goo.gl/BSk4BgpW4YdYTCBo8
          
          You know you're too obsessed with a fandom when you MLP-ify it.

whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            Thank you! I worked very hard on all the skins.
            I do highly recommend it. It's an MMORPG.
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WonderGirl1059

I love your avatar on it too it’s super cool
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WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 THOSE ARE SO COOL OH MY DAYS………
            I should get ponytown it looks sick
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WonderGirl1059

ayo I ain’t heard from you in a while hoping everything’s okie dokie 
          also sick cover for ITE :3

whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059
            awwwh thank you!
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WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 that’s so real
            also no rush!!! I was just thinking about you and hoping you were doing okay
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059
            I'm doing alright, AuDHD has just been kicking my ass lately, lol
            I'm gonna try to get out another chapter soon
            Also, I'm glad you like it! It took forever-
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whisperbunny-x

GUESS WHO'S BACK MOTHERFUCKERS!
          Yeah, I moved in with my grandmother, and I can finally have a life a little.
          Yay!

WonderGirl1059

this message may be offensive 
@ShadowFox_321 i'm using a program to write called ellipsus (it's so aesthetic and so good)!! also the link to my carrd (as well as my socials n shit) is on my profile I believe
            
            I'D LOVE TO HEAR ABOUT YOUR ORIGINAL STORIES ,, I love listening to people yap about them
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            *le gasp* where can I find these?
            
            (I don't have it, unfortunately :[ )
            (I also started to write my own original stories, but I'm not ready to get them out yet. Maybe when I have more access to materials and actually finish a book and such :] ) (I also am totally not obsessed with oc's I swear-)
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WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 btws if you have tumblr ,, there should be a link on my carrd going to a blog dedicated to ocs from my original story ,, i'd love to yap about it with you if you'd be interested (i'm totally not hyperfixated on it, totally mhm yep no not at all i'm totally normal about my ocs)
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whisperbunny-x

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Guess who has too controlling parents who found that they were on wattpad again!
          
          Yeah this dumbass didn't think maybe they would check my history on Bing.
          Yeah, I'm on Bing to write. That's how much I love you guys and this fandom.
          
          Gonna try to be smarter, but idk what'll happen-
          They fucking blocked Spider and stuff on the Microsoft games-
          So-

whisperbunny-x

Guess what motherfuckers!
          Homeschool is doing me well, and I can access the internet here hahaha
          So, I'mma try to finish up In The End before I finish school; that was a worry of mine when I lost the secret phone.
          I'll try to work on other things too, but ITE is my main priority, as it's a gift for an old friend of mine.
          Love you, said friend! You know who you are!
          Oh! Also, to this friend, I feel you'd like knowing all this: I respect your decision, and I will put all that you have taught me to good use. I'm currently on antidepressants as well, and they're helping me so much. I'm taking a lot better care of myself, and things are going to be okay.
          Thank you for being there; couldn't have done this without that push from you.
          Have a good life.

WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 SCREAMS HANG ON
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 Oh! Also, I updated ITE, if you wanna check that out-
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 Thank you, Angel!!!
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WonderGirl1059

https://discord.gg/m8mqMwKh
          
          JOIN US JOIN US AND GIVE US YOUR LOVELY FANART

whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            *cries in confused autism*
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WonderGirl1059

@ShadowFox_321 TAKE YOUR TIME 
            BUT STILL JOIN WHENEVR YOU WANT
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whisperbunny-x

@WonderGirl1059 
            AAAAAAAAAAH
            I'm working on Erebus now-
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