I loved your warmth for as long as I had it, however, it is only natural that when a candle no longer has anything to burn, no way to warm me, hold me or console me, the only thing left to it but a miserable flame, I'll want to spare it and put it out for hopeful another day. The same thing with you. I'd rather preserve my memories with you when they were painted in cheerful colours than have them tainted with all those negative emotions, those mean words, the resentment and every other thing. I love you, I do, but I'd rather if one day, i get lucky enough to cross paths with you again, it'll happen in a better light, when we've resolved whatever life has thrown at us and we've grown just at least a tiny bit more.
Merry (early) Christmas, Aki, may you get everything you wanted and everything you worked so hard for. I look forward to hear all about it one day.
