You know when you rip a tree from its roots & you try to plant it somewhere else where the conditions don't match its nature & you expect it to florish n go back to the way it was..... My life for the past one n a half yrs .... 
Status: trying to adapt n move on
Status 6 yrs later: so the tree adapted & turned into sth else.... it's getting harder for it to  remember its roots & what it ones was--> not sure if that's a negative turn of events