whyusoshyy

Idk how to do this anymore. It’s too much. I’m pathetic. I say the wrong stuff all the time. I’m shivering and crying. Liam is dead. And I thought everything was going to get better. It didn’t. But I need to function. How. How are all of these people happy. And I’m sitting here, belittling myself.

whyusoshyy

@louified yes exactly and thank you <333 *hugging you back* 
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louified

@whyusoshyy i feel the same way. It feels like our comfort place is no more. I hope you feel better soon *sending you a big hug* :(( 
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whyusoshyy

Idk how to do this anymore. It’s too much. I’m pathetic. I say the wrong stuff all the time. I’m shivering and crying. Liam is dead. And I thought everything was going to get better. It didn’t. But I need to function. How. How are all of these people happy. And I’m sitting here, belittling myself.

whyusoshyy

@louified yes exactly and thank you <333 *hugging you back* 
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louified

@whyusoshyy i feel the same way. It feels like our comfort place is no more. I hope you feel better soon *sending you a big hug* :(( 
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harryandhisbaby

Hey, thanks for the follow! It would mean the world to me if you could check out my story TORN (available in both English and German). I’ve put my heart and soul into it, and I’m currently stuck in bed with a broken foot, so I’ve got plenty of time to keep writing and updating it regularly. It’s the first story I’ve ever written, and I would love to hear your thoughts. A like, comment, or any feedback would be amazing!
          
          Thanks again, and take care! 

whyusoshyy

Bitteschön und gute Besserung dir <3 i mache gerade eine ff Pause wegen Liams Tod aber ich werde es safe lesen wenn ich den kopf dafür habe
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Mey_r28

Dear amazing person, who I love very much. I want to thank you for everything, but mainly for
          1. Existing
          2. Being you
          3. Being my friend
          4. Always being there for me
          5. Being absolutely amazing and wonderful. (Which leads back to being you, because you are amazing)
          I love you so much, I hope you have the most amazing day ever.
          ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
          Send this to all your friends <333
          {Started by @Sarah_Horanson}

Mey_r28

@whyusoshyy I love you beyond infinity
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whyusoshyy

@Mey_r28 Nooooo I love you to infinity 
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Mey_r28

@whyusoshyy I love you moree and u have nothing to thank me for love
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Mey_r28

How r uuu

Mey_r28

@whyusoshyy life happened lol I'm just tired and alone and on my period and hungry and on the verge of fainting but it'll get better 
            Good luck mate I literally always cry when harry choses to go to the trip to save louis-
            I don't have insta cuz I'm an antisocial ass but yeah u have my number if u want but I honestly never answer anyone these days
            Wdymm the day is still young
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whyusoshyy

@Mey_r28 oh noo i do u wanna talk abt it? what happened? (I can hear the orrible)
            real like they need to chill tf out
            I’m feeling kinda like reading it idk we’ll see if I make it without crying 
            my day was alright tbh I didn’t do much
            btw can we talk over insta or smt bc I always forget to check wp
            or wait I have your number right?
            Btw you should sleep 
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Mey_r28

@whyusoshyy yeah same and I also had panick attacks it was 'orrible 'orrible
            ugh teachers can be so annoying like bitch we have other things to do than ur goddamn hw 
            fb is so sad tho why would u do that ToT
            Byeee ilyt I had a very shitty day hope urs was better <3
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whyusoshyy

I just dont know anything. I cant just wake up someday and found out he died. Dead. I cant believe it and everythings so unreal and i just dont know like i feel so wrong. Rip liam. He was so young and his kid is so young and i never thought that there would be a world where he isnt there. 
          And now i just carry on? 
          My friends dont even understand it and everythings so weird and i just dont know. Like what. I thought with all the things that were going on that itll Soon get better And maybe we'll get a reunion in 5 years And everything will be alright someday. But it won't. The sinking feeling im experiencing while looking at him. It cant be real. No. Please wake me up.

Mey_r28

Heyyy how ru

whyusoshyy

@Mey_r28 its so surreal i still wish for sb to wake me up bc this is a nightmare. I cried sm and the boys post breaks my heart and idk what to do like i cant just carry on? Every time im not distracting myself i start to cry and im not ready to say goodbye.
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Mey_r28

@whyusoshyy I cried my whole body last night and it's terrible but we must carry on and carry his memory with us so he'll always be here somehow
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whyusoshyy

@Mey_r28  idk what to say or do after hearing that with liam. Like i just cant believe hes dead. Dead? Like im so confused and crying and wtf
            
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Mey_r28

Ain't no way u were on a break too how have you been

Mey_r28

@whyusoshyy byeee I was going to sleep again anyway GOOD LUCK WITH STUDYING
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whyusoshyy

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@Mey_r28 same honestly 
            I was a kinda larrie and then an anti and now I think that it’s actually none of our business and that larries are the reason that their rrl close bond broke (or  maybe they grew up too) bc they were so close up until 2013
            Like I wanna know what happened but at the same time it’s their private life and like imagine every little thing you do with ur friend gets sexualized
            And it’s obvious that atleast some of their relationships were real and I can’t wrap my head around how delusional you have to be to think that they are married and currently in a relationship 
            And I think when they were young a lot of the stuff were jokes (like the question of who Harry’s first crush was and if they are dating) and they just didn’t know the impact it would have
            Like harry said ‚romantic‘ things abt the other boys in a jokey way all the time
            And a lot of those larry proofs is just one of them looking at the other one while talking (which is a polite thing to do)
            At the same time some of the proof I can’t explain (like when harry/Louis got asked abt larry they just could’ve said no that’s bullshit but they just responded awkwardly)
            I’m ranting and I need to study
            So yeee byeeeeee
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