Hey..
Right now, even though I want to keep on going- I'm kinda hurt. I know people are never satisfied. They wil keep hurting. They will keep pushing, shoving, teasing, bullying. I've learned, over, and over, and over. I just don't understand. If I'm already on the ground, why step on me? If someone's already dead, why would you shoot them again? If someone's already bleeding and giving up, why would you keep going? It's happened again.
But that's okay. I know they don't know I'm broken. They see my mask of confidence. And maybe that's better. Because they don't have more to scoff at. I know, I'm fragile. And truthfully, I know I say a lot;
"I'm not doing this for attention."
And I'm not. I'm not lying, but I still want that support. I want you to reach out to me and tell me it'll be okay. Because it's hurting. I can't hide it anymore. Please... if you're reading this, help me. In any way, shape or form.
And I understand if you can't. I'm too lost now, and if you can't, don't feel guilt. I just want someone to talk to. Someone who believes in me. Someone who actually cares. I miss that. If you've read through this already, thank you. You cared enough to not skip through this. And maybe that's already a little bit better.
I'm sorry. I'm just another person with a massive ego which needs to be fed. I'm really, really sorry.
So please. Help me.. I could really use some help. It would mean so much.
-J.Tay