winbleu

how do you deal with internal homophobia genuinely TT

0_Letts

@winbleu I completely get you. I honestly don’t think labels are necessary. Maybe with time and more experiences, you’ll figure things out a little more. And about the idea of “being gay,” I think that, little by little, the word will start to feel more natural to you and make more sense for you, and it’ll get easier to stop hiding from yourself. Good luck to both of us!!
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winbleu

@0_Letts sooo real
          	  like i do understand that and im okay with everyone else obviously but i just cant be okay with myself to the point where i just stay unlabelled cause the idea of me being gay is just wrong in my head
          	  it’s not like i need a label to love whoever but it’s just easier to lie to myself ig
          	  i hope we both find peace with it
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0_Letts

Honestly, I still struggle with it every day. But what helps me is reminding myself that there’s nothing wrong with loving someone, no matter their gender, and knowing that you deserve all the good things in life, just like anyone else. I don’t think there’s a magic solution, but as time goes by, it does get easier, and you’ll eventually overcome it !!
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winbleu

how do you deal with internal homophobia genuinely TT

0_Letts

@winbleu I completely get you. I honestly don’t think labels are necessary. Maybe with time and more experiences, you’ll figure things out a little more. And about the idea of “being gay,” I think that, little by little, the word will start to feel more natural to you and make more sense for you, and it’ll get easier to stop hiding from yourself. Good luck to both of us!!
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winbleu

@0_Letts sooo real
            like i do understand that and im okay with everyone else obviously but i just cant be okay with myself to the point where i just stay unlabelled cause the idea of me being gay is just wrong in my head
            it’s not like i need a label to love whoever but it’s just easier to lie to myself ig
            i hope we both find peace with it
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0_Letts

Honestly, I still struggle with it every day. But what helps me is reminding myself that there’s nothing wrong with loving someone, no matter their gender, and knowing that you deserve all the good things in life, just like anyone else. I don’t think there’s a magic solution, but as time goes by, it does get easier, and you’ll eventually overcome it !!
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winbleu

hii, long time no see ig((
          
          so.. i decided to unpublish the story and move on for the sake of my mental health and my own healing. writing the story affected me more than i expected, and i dont want something from my past to still bring me down or shape the way i am right now. of course, it helped me understand my feelings better, but it also kept me tied down to a chapter of my life i dont want to live in anymore.
          
          i thought about continuing and finishing it, i thought about changing the ending to something happier, something i wish would happen in my reality, but i cant do that. that wouldn’t be fair, wouldn’t be honest. not to me, not to that person, not to my characters. changing it would change the meaning of the story and i dont want that. from the start it was about acceptance, because sometimes love is not about staying, but also letting go, even when it hurts, even when you dont want to. 
          
          i am grateful for this journey, for every raw emotion it allowed me to feel without guilt, and for everyone who read it and connected with it in their own way. this story helped me survive a chapter in my life, but it’s time for me to close it. 
          
          thank you for being here, i hope we’ll meet again someday

nicolavvo

thank you so much for allowing us to read your story i enjoyed it sm it was beautiful. i wish you the best author :))
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cecibluuu

I wish you all the best luck girl! You got it!
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cecibluuu

Oh no girl, that’s so sad but I 100% understand you! You said so many beautiful and relatable things here. I’m proud of you for having the courage to address this!
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