@windextodoroki
oh em gee hey guys i haven’t been on here in a hot ass minute, i graduated from wattpad to ao3 in early 2021 so sorry i’ve just been gone.. i’m probably gonna go back to ao3 after this but anyways ❤️
peace homies,
-yours truly caspian <3
‼️Trigger Warning‼️
i want to die. simple as that really. maybe not fully die but i want to disappear from society for good. i didn’t ask to be born. i didn’t ask to have cancer at 8 years old. i didn’t ask to lose all of my friends. i didn’t ask for any of this. i hate how my parents control my life. i see all these pictures of friends having fun and know that even if i had the friends to do those things i wouldn’t be able to do them because my parents are helicopter parents. i wish someone loved me like i had loved others in the past. i wish i could have a significant other but im to ugly for society standards and guys will only use me for my body. my parents are constantly slut shaming me and i get it ig, they just want to keep me safe... but at the cost of my happiness and my sanity? i know i need a therapist. i know i need to seek help but i can’t because i doubt anyone would believe me because im just the “perfect stuck up rich girl” when in reality i want to burn my skin off and start anew. i hate my body. I hate my mind. i hate myself and i can’t stop the intrusive thoughts that plague my mind. i wish it would all stop. and im sorry for venting here, if anyone sees this but this is the only way i can let my feelings out. ive deleted most social media’s because my parents said that “no one wants to listen to me complain because my thoughts don’t matter.” i in no way hate my parents but they are insensitive and abrasive and i don’t like that about them. they treat my feelings as a joke and im done with it.
Totally different just find you from Tiktok.. xD
FRANCO AURELIO IS REALLY DOIN IT ALL FIRST “LEVI SCENTED LUST” AND NOW “I APOLOGIZE FOR BEING A F*CKBOY” oh my god my anime heart cannot take the videos
i accidentally started reading a HinataxHarem story thinking it was just a Haikyuu oneshot book and I’m scared I’m so scared. the first chapter was Ukai teaching Hinata how to do the do and it started off like a normal crackfic oneshot book and then suddenly it was happening and I’m terrified absolutely terrified like I’m not sleeping tonight I’m going to have nightmares if I do
I love how my mom is working on my 15th birthday so I won’t see her all day. since my birthday is on Sunday (nov. 15th) I won’t be able to get until the 16th which is also a day my mom works so that means my dad will have to take me and while I love him cos he’s my father it doesn’t mean I want him to take me to the dmv. ig I’m going to ask guard if they want to hangout somewhere
Devil Town which earbuds hits different
I’m about to d!e I asked my mom for an Unus Annus sweatshirt and she asked why I wanted a shirt that said “one year” so I told her that it was a YouTube channel that would be deleted at the end of the year and that it started the day before therefore ending the day before my birthday she said she need to see what it was about one of the many not “appropriate” videos is cooking with s3x toys which even though I didn’t watch it she probably will so I will most likely lie and say I’ve only seen some recent videos from June forward and thought it was funny and that one of my friends recommended it for me so I’m either going to be yelled at or she’s going to think the channel is funny f!ck
I just love when my dad yells and curses at me while I’m trying to stop myself from having a panic attack, then I tried to remove myself from the situation and he wouldn’t let me so I had to lie and say I was just going to the bathroom so that I wouldn’t collapse in front of him. On top of that my mom is in the hospital and we don’t know what’s wrong (which is why I am sitting on the verge of a panic attack) then my dad took my dog who helps with my anxiety when my mom/friends aren’t here to calm me down. F*cking love today
Rest in piece Mr. Boesman we will miss you ❤️
