Leo<3

Even though they left and it hurts, maybe them leaving was for the better.
          
          
          I hope I find out if it’s for the better that everyone’s leaving me behind to just be a memory soon..

I don’t think I’m going to make it to my birthday. I don’t even want to celebrate my birthday anymore.

I don’t think I have any friends

My sibling texted me asking what gender I was into j responded and then they said that they wrote a novel with a character with the wrong sexuality and that they wanted to write something that I could see representation in :,)

I don’t get it. Everything just feels fucking numb. Why’s everything feel numb?

Two questions:
          
          What are fluorescents?
          
          Did Edward Cullen ever stop to think that the reason he couldn’t read Bella’s mind was because she had no thoughts in her head ever?

Quick thing that no one has to reply to I just want to get the feeling thought of:
          
          I feel replaced by my whole family and wish I didn’t but I will always feel replaced.

Quick question, can you get sick cause of black mold?

I made the realization from being upset about my mom not really reacting to me not feeling good.
          
          I still feel like a little kid and I’m the middle of crying all I thought was that I just want to see my dad.
          
          I calmed down a bit and thought about everything and maybe my brother is right about me never helping him but I don’t hate them I just need space at times.
          
          One of the reasons I’m mad at my family is because I feel like I’m being replaced and the reason I feel as if I’m being replaced is cause when I try to talk to my mom about how I feel she ignores me and seems to care more about her husband or his kids.
          
          I started crying again because I realized I was never a “bad kid” I just have no one who listened and so I did things to get attention.
          
          I know Im not the greatest sister or the greatest friend but I’m doing my best and sometimes I really wish I would have more people care about me.

Imagine not eating a lot and then when you ask for one thing your mom says your name instead of an answer and then when you say that she hasn’t answered she comments about how you said you wanted to watch your weight and makes you feel like shit for just wanting the one fucking thing.
          
          Like fuck it’s one thing and I just wanted it.