wolfie_wolfsentrlTWT

I'M BACK.. dang I haven't been on here in uh idk BUT I'M BACK 

It's been awhile... Hasn't it? You know I'm growing more and more tired idk... I feel like giving up every day. Even at school I just want to scratch my wrists and watch them bleed. But I swore I'd do better! I promised.. But now I feel like at any point I'll break what I promised... Even the reasons I'm still here feel like they don't want me here or are just annoyed with my presence... Have you ever felt that? I'm just tired.. I wanna scream... But I can't each night it's more frequent that I cry... Those regular crying sessions are just me wanting to escape this cruel life I live. I see everyone else so happy and then I look at myself. God whenever I even dare vent I feel like I'm selfish... I'm just putting whatever pressure I had on myself onto someone else... And then it wasn't fun yesterday... You know... I got yelled at. And was told I'm just like my dad. Those kittens that I have are probably the one thing that is keeping me going because I actually feel happy yes I feel happy with my o!family... But I feel annoyed at the fact that I'm probably just angering them with my sudden absence... And I'm doing this all for them.! I'm doing this for my friend and them and my sister! And I won't even get that much time with my sister any more! Because of studies! And I feel so fucking irresponsible when I can't complete my fucking school work I'm just so fucking tired! So please! When I tell you don't fucking do something don't! Please... I'm just so tired I can't deal with this shit anymore! For once I hope someone will read this and understand why I'm not responding!! Because I'm tired every single damn day I cover my ears to not hear the arguing! I just wanna lock myself in my room and not come out! But can I do that!? No!! Because I have school I have people that I can't just leave alone! Because I'm worried about every little thing! So please. Just Understand why I'm tired so often... 
          
          -Grace

Currently having a mental breakdown :D it's amazing! 

I'm making something for you Sense your meh fav sib >:) 
          
          (Also, it's gonna be cooler than the thing I made for mother!)

Okay I need opinions because this whole time I've been wondering.. What would people think if I wrote a story line that I've been thinking about for like years now yet never could do anything and I can write it on wattpad

Not my dad saying my brother has imagination and skills for drawing then there is me and my sister who has been doing art for quite some time and he calls it useless... I sense some favoritism-

... Sometimes I question my chances.. I still wonder to this day "why didn't I take the chance at slitting my throat?".. Why? I make everything worse.. I make everything worse. Maybe it's because I tend to ask instead of actually doing things I can do by myself.. Or maybe the fact that I tend to apologize and that irritates people to the point they start pointing it out as odd. I don't know any more.. I was happy to finally move.. But now I feel as though it won't change anything.. All it will do is make me suffer the same I did here. 

>:) wanna annoy mother?

Okay so maybe I'm an idiot because um it's currently 4 am I have to wake up at least at 7-8 am and I'm still not tired so uh.. Oh reason for waking up at those times school-

Okay so maybe shroo was right I am an idiot because again I'm staying up I've stayed up already 3 time and I was forced to wake up again 9 and fell asleep at like 1-3 one time it was getting close to 4am and now I'm back at it! >:D