Ok I know no one is going to see this and even if you do I don't blame you if you ignore it, I just need to get this off of my chest, I was physically and emotionally abused as a child and I had to protect my sisters from him and because of that I've had to grow up alot faster than normal teen agers. Heck im only 14 and people tell me I act more mature than actual adults, that's because I don't know how to get my childhood back. The last time I can actually remember being care free, thinking I could do anything and the world didn't affect me was when I was 7 because that's when it started. Now I live with those scares that douchebag gave me both physically and emotionally, I have depression and anxiety. I had it before but it wasn't this bad. Now it's gotten so bad I don't want to get out of bed most days and my anxiety keeps me from living my life and makes me have so many panic attacks I don't know what to do anymore. If your still reading this, wow I honestly can't believe it thanks because im not sure what's going to happen next...