wolfqueen848

I HAVE THESE THOUGHTS SO OFTEN I OUGHT TO REPLACE THAT SLOT WITH WHAT I ONCE BOUGHT CAUSE SOMEBODY STOLE MY CAR RADIO AND NOW I JUST SIT IN SILENCE

wolfqueen848

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Hey guys. Im going to be thirteen in three months! :)
          Im taking a break from wattpad for a bit due to a severe case of Writers Block. I'll be back once i get inspiration for a better story to write on here because, to be honest, my stories suck ass.  I'm not really taking a break like a hiatus, but im only going to be reading stuff for a bit. I might update my poetry book, but thats about it.
          
          
          
          
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          I have a pet gecko now and her name is Juliet. :)

wolfqueen848

I want to kill myself...

Gazalibelle

@wolfqueen848 Sweetheart, haven't you realized humans aren't perfect? I can relate so much. Its true. Its so hard to live with yourself when you mess up and disappoint everyone. I've honestly done just that. I've hurt people without meaning to and that killed me. I pushed myself so deep in that I couldn't begin to fix myself up. I know you feel lost and....does talking to someone help? I know sometimes its not enough, but...I know this is kinda random, but when I saw you're post regarding suicide and I realized you were twelve...it had me thinking about my sister. You know she was depressed right? Well she used to cry herself at night in the middle of 3 AM in the darkness of her bedroom while I was awake just listening to her sobbing her heart out...I don't think you should consider taking your life away because  it would hurt the people who care for you. You might not get it but you living has its purpose. You just haven't found it yet. And you might have stopped believing in God but if you pull yourself back up and hold on to His Hand, I promise he wont let go. And all you have to do is vent all the pain out. Talk to someone, whether it be God, whether it be a complete stranger, or whether it be a friend....you need to vent out all your anger and frustration and loneliness.  Okay? If you get through this, I can swear you are guaranteed for greatest. Listen to other peoples story who can relate. Its always a breather when you realize you're not the only one:)
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wolfqueen848

@wolfqueen848 the reason I believe I'm a mistake is because of how I seem to ruin and mess up everything. It's like I can't do anything right. My depression has gotten to a point where I've stopped believing in God.
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Gazalibelle

@wolfqueen848 why do you think you're a mistake? Do you believe in God? Cause Gods creations are perfect. And just because some are broken doesn't mean they're not perfect. What im trying to say is....you can simply say no one understands your pain. Everyone has gone through being broken and beat at least once in their life time. And you being broken and pained is just a trial for you to become stronger. Believe me. This pain will start to feel better. I wont lie and tell you the pain will heal because scars stay forever. BUT the pain will become easier. I swear it will. Your dad hates you? Well its his fault. He lost a daughter. Its his loss not yours. Your schools treats you like sh3t, then they don't know you. You're going to beat them down one day and when you look back at being twelve, you'll go like,'Hey. i got stronger'. Being bullied is something that hurts. Its you against everyone else and its you fighting while everyone goes on with their lives. Those people are sick, okay? You being bullied WILL end. It doesn't last and the greatest advice I can give you is to tell your principal or let someone know. Bullying is illegal okay. No freking school is even allowed to leave bullying unattended! If your schools like that ; then they are literally dipsh3ts. 
            
            
            Living isn't a mistake. If living was truly a mistake, we wouldn't be here breathing. Take it from me.
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