I don't know man.... What even is life? Is there meaning that I'm somehow over looking? There's gotta be More to it...
Desperately in need of a real friend but I'm awkward for life and have no idea what to talk about to my friends... Any advice on this matter is welcome lol 

I have a separate profile for my real self this is where my dark thoughts come to hide so I don't get judged by society bc even the ones who say they don't judge are judging. 
I just want to meet one nice genuinely caring and right person so I can claim to have a real friend. I don't know who to trust bc I haven't found anyone who hasn't disappointed me. Can you believe my "friends" call me the nice and positive one in the group? Me either bc darkness rules my mind and hear. 

Netflix 
If I had a choice and money I'd be a loner living in the country 
Music... But what kind?
Reader 
More into Math but I like to write 
Stem 
Incognito profile