ya Allah tadi dah type so f panjang dah tapi terscroll down pastu tertutup :| ok tapi im back yall after idk how long wakakakaka i have a story to tell tapi still in progress.
disclaimer : idk if i TRULY like him or i just adore him as a person, and whether its a long lasting or macam short term phase je. Im hoping to find answers/endings of this story because I’ve never felt this way before so macam it’s a brand new experience.
ok, starting off, dulu aku cam tak pernah LANGSUNG imagine kitorang more than friends, max memang besties je faham tak, also macam SUPER SUPER CRINGE kalau nak imagine pun tapi rn i dont think i feel that way anymore.
this rollercoaster of emotions began when time tu ada one of his friends cakap la pasal his family and how he’s such a good son. and i feel terharu? correction. sangat terharu?? sebab yelah siapa sangka kan dia selalu macam hahahihi je tapi tahu tahu macam tu ? so macam hufusiajajs idk tapi im 90% confident yang at that time cam aku just adore dia, nothing more.
also im so MEAN like so so mean im sorry tapi I always think that he’s a joke. tapi recently he proved me wrong. he’s the exact opposite so macam faham tak he’s starting to get more and more likable while im getting more and more confused. tak pernah expect pun dia tahu ada lah one specific topic ni tapi macam faham takndjsmsjsj susah la nak explain AAA HAHAHHAH
oh pastu dia ambitious although sometimes tak make sense ( a little ) and most importantly sangat beriman, the root of my insecurities. IF AND ONLY IF i genuinely like him, I feel like tak layak sebab all of the things mentioned above pastu aku ni jahat faham tak so cam tak tahu lah. tadi sampai rasa sedih dalam kete sebab insecure sangat HAHAHAHAHAHA OVER
i also dk why dulu kalau nak suka orang tu suka je lah, terkinja kinja je tapi sekarang ni selalu before nak suka orang cam question diri sendiri cam ko ni layak ke faham tak. ni faktor penuaan ke wei HAHAHAHAHA tapi macam tulah.
