Hello there @sicksadangst! Could you maybe possibly read my book Warm Hugs and Cold Kisses? It'd mean so much to me if you would.
Anyways, so sorry for bothering you. =)
Also, I see from your profile that you don't feel happy a lot? My book 'And I'll Be Me' may help a little - it's designed to help people feel better about themselves and life in general x