wumboIogy

happy birthday to me ‼️

wumboIogy

@swaIIowtail THANK YOU!!!!! MI AMORRR
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swaIIowtail

happy birthday luv <33
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wumboIogy

literally turning 18 on the 29th… i have a month left of a free ride before i have to actually get myself together but i don’t know where to start. i’m basically trapped where i am, i see all my family members my age getting along fine and then i look at myself and what i’m doing and it’s like. im not meant for anything. i’m destined to be average. i will never be anything but mediocre and that’s so disappointing. i mean it’s not like i ever wanted to be a doctor or anything but the knowing that i’m just another person destined to do nothing but be a shell of my family’s back handed motivation, knowing that i’ll likely never have the passion or the drive to do something for myself that requires more than 10 minutes of physical labor. i hate waking up everyday because i’m just instantly reminded of who i am and what i lack and i don’t know where to start. i’m so lost but also trapped with not even a life jacket. i didn’t even graduate high school. 

swaIIowtail

i’m so sorry you’re going through this my love , there isn’t much i can say or do to help you but please know that if you ever need to talk then i am always here for you <33 
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wumboIogy

mmm i’m definitely spiraling lol it just keeps getting worse and worse 

wumboIogy

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cannot! go to bed without thinking about how everything i feel i bring upon myself, that my being emotional and crying when someone says something with a slight tone change like holy fuck i’m so sensitive i need to stop bitching and moaning but oh my god it’s so hard (but i also can’t talk about this irl without crying immediately.. it would appear i am in a pickle) 
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