wwwwwaterbottle

this message may be offensive 
Hi!
          	Since I'm scared of twitter atm, this may as well be my little outlet
          	If you follow me - sorry you get to read through this
          	
          	// Vent below
          	I'd like to formally announce that I'm kinda dumb.
          	I make spectacular mistakes that sometimes ruin my own and other people's lives
          	I'm not exactly a good guy I suppose, although I always see myself as one
          	After loosing almost all my close friends in one day I thought that it's fine: it's not like I can't live without friends anyway!
          	Oh boy was I fucking wrong lmao
          	Panic attacks are a thing with me now I THINK, at least it feels like that.
          	I have NO idea of what my emotions are at any given moment (and what is even cooler is that every emotion feels like a bad one)
          	I ghost people on a regular basis and feel bad about it
          	And basically, I'm only realizing all this fully after like. A month.
          	I need friends 
          	It feels like my high cognitive functions slowly start declining without constant attention from people
          	Does that make me some sort of attention addict/vampire/leech? You fucking bet it does! Do I actually get any attention/make people give it to me/ask for it? No! Because talking to people can actually be scary to me! To the point that when I get a dm my mind jumps to "oh shit this person just found out about XXXXXX"!
          	
          	I had a close friend about a month ago
          	I hope they're doing okay
          	But they ruined my fucking life
          	I guess I shouldn't blame them, because I did the same. And I don't blame them. I don't blame anyone but myself.

wwwwwaterbottle

this message may be offensive 
Hi!
          Since I'm scared of twitter atm, this may as well be my little outlet
          If you follow me - sorry you get to read through this
          
          // Vent below
          I'd like to formally announce that I'm kinda dumb.
          I make spectacular mistakes that sometimes ruin my own and other people's lives
          I'm not exactly a good guy I suppose, although I always see myself as one
          After loosing almost all my close friends in one day I thought that it's fine: it's not like I can't live without friends anyway!
          Oh boy was I fucking wrong lmao
          Panic attacks are a thing with me now I THINK, at least it feels like that.
          I have NO idea of what my emotions are at any given moment (and what is even cooler is that every emotion feels like a bad one)
          I ghost people on a regular basis and feel bad about it
          And basically, I'm only realizing all this fully after like. A month.
          I need friends 
          It feels like my high cognitive functions slowly start declining without constant attention from people
          Does that make me some sort of attention addict/vampire/leech? You fucking bet it does! Do I actually get any attention/make people give it to me/ask for it? No! Because talking to people can actually be scary to me! To the point that when I get a dm my mind jumps to "oh shit this person just found out about XXXXXX"!
          
          I had a close friend about a month ago
          I hope they're doing okay
          But they ruined my fucking life
          I guess I shouldn't blame them, because I did the same. And I don't blame them. I don't blame anyone but myself.