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Since you seem to be active on this account and I want to make this public, I'm going to post this here. Heaven Serenity Rodriguez, I love you with all of my heart, all of my body, and all of my soul. There is no one I have ever met who is more beautiful, more loving, and no one I love anymore than you. I remember the first time we met, we were lonely and looking for someone to cuddle, and we were both obsessed with Braden Barrie and Peace Tea (how basic of us). Our days after that consisted of cuddling, talking (mainly about bands and Braden Barrie), but I was slowly starting to fall out of love with my ex and in love with you. I mean, Dev, you were perfect, more than I would have ever wished for. then you stood up for me against my ex and I felt special. I don't know why, I guess it meant you were actually scared. A week later, we started loosing touch. I always noticed when your name changed and I always wanted to talk to you, but I felt like you didn't want me there. Every time I texted you, it felt like I was unwanted by you, so I just refrained from it in general. I started talking to you again in December, when you annoyingly added me to this now dead chat. I enjoyed talking to you, I was starting to fall in love with you again, but I was with Rees. Well, when Rees and I didn't work out, I had high hopes that we would. I guess we don't always get what we want, huh? You disappeared for weeks and it drove me fucking crazy. How the hell can one person drive someone else insane? I stopped eating and sleeping (for the most part), I was constantly checking my phone to see if you'd texted. When you finally would, my heart would skip a beat like it did when we were together, or hell, even before then. You mean so much to me and you don't even realize it. You sit there and you flirt back with me, but really it pains me that we aren't even together. I know it's partly my fault, but I don't want to force you into a relationship and that's what I felt like I was doing.