Lausdon

Hii

I miss you buddy :/ I hope you're happy up there.. I spoke to Sam, he misses you a lot, he's been depressed lately because his little brother ran away, but I know he'll come back soon. Anyways, I'm feeling a lot happier you know. 
          Lots of Love <3
          -Nat

... I miss you.. I really do..

They didn't know you as well as I did... You were amazing.. and my minds doing this sorta thing where I want to email you like your still here and then everything comes back into memory, crushing my heart like a ton of bricks... And I feel like your still out there somewhere, like your still alive... just in a coma or something and they think that you might never wake up, so they pronounce you dead. Now my minds making up every possibility that your alive, but dead down somewhere I know that your dead. I know that I should be used to this pain by now, hell I could be a professional at knowing the pain you get when someone you love so much dies... yet every time I break down like a kid and start ignoring people and holding things in and get suicidal, even though I know I never want to hurt someone with the pain of death or any pain at all. I can feel my body mentally pulling away from everybody and closing itself off.... I don't want to do that and.... Blakes been slipping out, without my control... I'm losing it Kay! I'm frikin losing it and I can't do crap about it.... Im sorry for ranting, with you it just spills out... sorry I love you and I miss you Laus <3

Hey Laus, I'm back in the hospital again :/ It sucks because they keep poking me with stuff and making me stay in bed, blehh. I painted my nails yesterday, and felt all girly and shiz ^_^ I was listening to Six Feet Under the Stars by ATL and it made me think of you :).... I miss you and I wish you were here.. It makes me feel bad that I couldn't have saved you.. I let another person slip away to the other side. If you see my sister or sky or Nash or my papi..  can you tell them hi for me? It may seem weird or useless, but it sewms as if this is,the only way to keep you with me. I love you Kay <3

Omg I just Noticed That Your Pic Has The Fucking Mustache Tape 8D
          Lol
          ~Cookii~

Black Butler <3
          Oh Bassy <3
          I Think That I Would Die If I Didnt Have Music.
          Literally... o.o I Would Decompose... D8;
          ~Cookii~

Hi candy bar :c 
          I hope you are happy, you deserve to be.  
          Sissie misses you :/ she got sunburned and now I want a sunburn o.o
          R.I.P candy bar<3

P.S. I never knew your last name was Lee o_0
          
          P.P.S. It suits you well XD

So I sorta started this thing called Letters To Landon :) I wanna write you a letter ever day, and I hope that you get them wherever you are.. So I guess this is the first one.
          
          Hai Laus... this is sorta weird for me so bare with me haha. I have a son named Aiden now, and your hs uncle :) I'm gonna tell him all about you, and how great you were. I got my Toms cleaned :D Now their all sparrkly and shiz! I made a huge rainbow skittle out of a bunch of many skittles for you... but I got hungry... so I ate it, Sorry. I felt really bad about eating it so I made a skittle poster instead :) this way I wont eat it ^-^ thats about it though, I'll write you tomorrow, I love you <3