xLilaaa

Everyone, I passed the defense. Road to being a graduate architect.  But I still need to recover my story "OSIA". Will update you guys about it. 

Why is my story "Overpass Somewhere in Ayala" is missing? did someone reported it?
          
          Help, I'm so tressed with my thesis right now, I can't bare any added weight. 

Read an article today and Marian Roces said, "Ignorance blended with arrogance can't possibly be fashionable"
          
          Love it! And disclaimer, I'm not after the issue, it's the saying that caught my attention. 

This message is for you, Hotdog.
          
          Today, you unexpectedly said goodbye. My heart can't seem to accept your death. I told myself I wouldn't cry but I never thought that I would while writing this message.
          
          You have been with me since I was 15. I can still perfectly remember how you were given to us. I can still hear your bark. I can still remember how strong you are. I can still remember how you've protected us—and I'm in my saddest state knowing I wasn't even given a chance to bid my goodbye. 
          
          Hotdog, please know that you'll forever be in my heart. You'll stay in my memories forever. I'm sorry I wasn't able to see, caress, feed, cuddle you for the last time. Fly high, Angel ❤️.
          
          

Hello, this is xLilaaa. I want to sincerely apologize if I haven't been posting updates on any of my stories for quite some time now. I've been dealing with anxiety attacks lately and sometimes I feel like it would eat me alive. 
          
          I'm not really that type of person that would express his/her deeper problems through social media/friends/family—as long as I can hold it in, I'll keep it for myself—but these days, I've been having trouble dealing with it alone. 
          
          Family drama, financial problems, lack of support, pressure of being a breadwinner, multiple failed job applications, discrimination, insecurities, studies, expectations, not secured future plans, are just one of those factors that contributes to my dilemma—it troubled me in any way you can think of. And so I'm writing this at 1:30 am to let you know that it might take some time for me to get back on track again. Once more, I sincerely apologize but I do hope you understand. Thank you and God bless!
          
          Ps. For friends, don't worry I'll be fine. And please keep quiet, this is the only platform I can rant, don't take it away.