cant-do-anything Lilly

Hey chat, This is my new account, I am a lot more sane now too >:) 
          I am in a happy and healthy relationship and I may talk about him or write a story about me and him based on straight facts. He makes me feel pretty when I don't. ANYWHO i really hope everyone is doing amazing whether you see this or not.

Please look at the lower conversations

I'm alive! 
          ..surprisingly.

this is my secondary acc where i write more gory things and less fanfiction and actual books. (this acc as in the one i am writing on)
          i wanted this acc name to be all lol i want to die (dark humor which is making light of your trauma/issues)  but it just came to be a dumb name and i hate it. i wish it was donkeyshit2007 (shrek movie 3 -year it came out) but i was tired and it was literally 3am

@3amwantingtokms

HAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHHAHA 
          
          ive won. its all over. hes gone. HES GONE!!! 
          
          sir who used to be my best fake friend and whom was ruining my mental health is going to be going online for the rest of the year and then hes moving back in with his mom which is in a whole ass other state! hes never going to bother me again. just one more week... 
          ..maybe i'll feel up to write.. im in a great mood.. also very anxious and sad but auspicious is the main one.   anyways i have an awesome song recommendations which will be in that very book or whatever u wanna call it, just look through my works and you'll know it when you see it. 
          this isnt a ay im back this is a maybe ill be on more often. i love you

hey sorry for being non-existent, i mean i know most of you don't care. anyways i am just giving a heads up so that none of you are sad or mad that i'm not responding but i will not be active, due to some.. personal.. reasons. don't worry i cant kill myself even if i tried because my mother has my knife because people found out i had cut. anyways like i said, i won't be very active and i am sorry. ill be back sometime around april or may. still dont be afraid to dm me if you need to or want to. i love hearing about you guys and helping with problems.

hey, i know its been a while.. 
          
          here's the update;  My boy bsf decided to not be my best friend anymore, i dont really care, i saw it coming. Idk why tho but hes been talking behind my back saying im fake? and that im not being myself anymore. well 1st of all, hes the fake one. i always tried to protect him from as much as i could because he was abused when he was young. not anymore but i wont be mean to him. im just so confused. he ended up as like all my best friends do, fake, mentally abusing, ect. 2, of course im 'not being myself' you dumb bitch. i changed, also im going to be sad because youve been acting like u hated me recently. 
          
          anyways we share the same best friend but whenever im around her and he is too he acts different and mean and like he doesnt want me to be there. so im kinda lonely, i mean i love being alone but when its because of this i cant stand it.

(update at the end) "14 minutes left" KSIJUHSHUH MATH IS GONNA BE SCARY- IT JUST CHANGED TO 11 MINUTES ASF- BYE- 
          
          edit: goodmorning, guess who won. me.  i won. 
          my chromebook didnt die and i was able to charge it at home so today we are going to be able to write, Currently writing ch. 2 of Too Loud Of a World and if u want me to also work on something else as well id be more than happy to!

My chromebook has only 59 minutes left to live and i have till 3pm (rn its 11:48) till school is done and we use our computers 3/4ths of the school day- help jsiwhd