I have the best cousin ever. He is more like my big brother than my older cousin. It kills me that we live in two different states now...With all that is going on in my life right now, I was give the option to move back to Kansas...I want to so I can be with my cousin, but I don't want to leave my newly acquired friends and my best friend ever @Loudry. I am stuck between a rock and a heard place right now...I love my family so so much, but I love my friends as well. I have nothing left in Iowa that brings me happiness except the friends I have, and the music that follows me everywhere. I don't know what to do anymore. I have nothing to live for anymore....I promised Audry I wouldn't self-harm anymore, and I am not going to break that promise, because if i did, it break her heart. Music just doesn't make me happy anymore, and writing is getting boring...I need some support guys. Please tell me to stay strong and don't stop writing, because right now, I am on the verge of deleting all my accounts and leaving for good. I love you all so much. Every single one of my followers. I love you. I will try and update soon, for my readers, but not for me.
~Abby