Rayne

I don't post here much anymore. This is a mostly abandoned account. So here is a bunch of things going on in my life rn. 
          I've been working my ass off to get the last credit I need to graduate.
          I've finally gotten in with a therapist. 
          I feel like I've lost all of my friends. 
          I'm being forced to move soon after graduation.
          I have been thinking of if anyone would miss me if I were to not wake up ever again.
          My life has gone to shit but I have to pretend it didn't. 

After waiting a month for results from a blood test I did a month ago, I got the results today. I have PCOS and am now on a new medication because I'm very insulin resistant 

To those of you who are my friend on discord but never check discord:
          I'm sorry but I've left all servers. I'm tired of feeling like no one cares anymore. I've hit a new low with my mental health. If you need me just DM me.

Today is my 18th birthday! 

So it turns out that Lydia is actually a male cat so his name is now Beetlejuice. I only found out he is male because we took him to the vet because he has an upper respiratory infection and the vet walked into the waiting room and said "So Lydia is definitely a boy". I then had his name changed in their system and he is now legally Beetlejuice (Insert My Last Name). 

I love going through phases where I'm super into this thing and then in a month or two I completely forget about it's existence. A video of Gardening With Argos popped up while I was doom scrolling and then I went and binged all of The World Of Mr. Plant that is out. 

I got a cat last week. Her name is Lydia. I named her after Lydia Deetz from Beetlejuice because she's my favorite character from both the movie and the musical. 

Just blocked a bitch. Feeling good

I love that when I play two truths and a lie I can say that I ate moldy food and had no adverse effects. Like I went on with my day perfectly fine and didn't even have a stomach ache. 

I need everyone to listen to Wings of A Butterfly or Killing Loneliness or Wicked Game by HIM and tell me what you think