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Damn, life hates me so much. Everything is going downhill again - or maybe it was like that the whole time. Everything is just shitty. Today I told my mother I had nightmares and couldn't really sleep well for a few weeks. Her reaction, no shit, was: "So it's not my problem if you're so lazy. And I'll take away your phone and everything else if you don't change anything. And if the house burns, it's not my problem if you can't call anyone" Yes, she's always like that. And when I do something wrong, she's pissed for DAYS and I 'don't have the right to be pissed' if she does something because 'she's my mother'. I literally told her today I'm panicking because of everything and then she says that. She yelled at me, screamed at me, insulted me. But 'she's only doing that because she loves me'. But I can't tell her how I feel about everything and that I'm sad, panicked, whatever- I know she won't believe me. And I know she won't believe me if I say I can't change that I'm an extreme introvert. She will just yell at me. And at the moment I (and a few others) suspect that I either have some form of autism or social anxiety. I just know that if I tell her she just won't believe me and won't do anything until I need a doctor or therapist again.. and I'm scared. I guess I'm really unlucky in life but I only want someone to listen to me