Okay, I really don't know why I'm doing this, because it's weird and I'm a stranger and all that. But I just wanted to tell you that you are amazing. I've read your trans journal, and I just feel so bad that someone as amazing as you has to suffer through dysphoria and sadness and pain because you do not in the least deserve it. There are so many people in the world that deserve what you're going through a million times more, but it's happening to you and it isn't fair. On the other hand, you handle it so well and seem so capable of living with it, while others would have already broken down completely. So, in a way, it's a good thing that this whole thing is on the shoulders of someone who can deal with it.
Basically, all I'm trying to say is that I believe in you and know you can make it through all of this, Aaron. The situation may look bad now, but imagine how awesome your life will be in five years. You can move somewhere where nobody has to know that you were assigned female at birth (but you should ALWAYS tell someone that you are close to/romantically involved with that you're transgender. Not telling them would be beyond dangerous.). But you could finally be who you want without stopping you, Aaron. I know you can do it, and I know you will. Because you're amazing.
P.s. - Talk to me if you need someone, okay? Whether you need someone to talk to or someone to listen, I'm here. You cam direct message me here on Wattpad, or you can kik me at HighlandFallsx .