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HI BESTIE!

hii bugg i see youre on a break but i just got back from mine so ill wait for you :)

I honestly think I'm gonna be inactive for a month maybe bcuz my mental health is fucked and I want to attempt to get a fresh start for the sake of my family's well being bcuz if I do something stupid it will hurt them more than it will hurt me...
          
          [Plz don't report me, I'm taking a break to try to better my mental state.]

Chaotically spewing lore to my parents is so fucking funny bcuz they have no idea wtf I'm talking abt
          
          Like the other day I was telling my mom abt how TOH s3 ep1 made me cry and she was like "why?" so then I went into detail abt lore and what happened, lmao
          
          And earlier today I told my parents abt Jeff the killer and they were so fucking lost and concerned [but chat I might be cooked-]

I have two new hyper-fixations...
          
          
          
          
          [Wtf is my obsession with 18+ yandere games?-]

I FUCKING KNEW IT!!
          
          THE VOICE ACTOR FOR THE YOUNGER VERSION OF EDA IN TOH IS THE SAME VOICE ACTOR THAT PLAYS ESTHER IN HAUNTED HOTEL

IS THAT ABEL MY SWEET BOY 

Istg I need knee pads at this point or some shit-
          
          For the past week or two my knees have constantly been bruised, scraped, and cut
          
          Like earlier, I was just trying to put on a pair of shorts and I slammed my knee into the corner of my art desk so hard it started bleeding and it still hurts like hell when I barely touch it T^T

Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens
          
          The evil it spread like a fever ahead
          It was night when you died, my firefly
          What could I have said to raise you from the dead?
          Oh could I be the sky on the Fourth of July?
          Well you do enough talk
          My little hawk, why do you cry?
          Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
          Or the Fourth of July?
          We're all gonna die
          Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head
          Was it all a disguise, like Junior High
          Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction
          Now, where am I?
          My fading supply
          Did you get enough love, my little dove
          Why do you cry?
          And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best
          Though it never felt right
          My little Versailles
          The hospital asked should the body be cast
          Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky
          Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth
          Do you find it all right, my dragonfly?
          Shall we look at the moon, my little loon
          Why do you cry?
          Make the most of your life, while it is rife
          While it is light
          Well you do enough talk
          My little hawk, why do you cry?
          Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
          Or the Fourth of July?
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die
          We're all gonna die

I went to the park and hung out with a good friend of mine that I haven't seen in a few months and all I've gotta say is: That was a WILD fucking experience - not bcuz of her, bcuz of other ppl-
          
          To start off, we were minding our own business chilling on top of an old tank at the park a few blocks from my house [yes, we're aloud to climb on it, everything is locked/welded shut] and we were trying to get down since we had to leave soon...but some random teenage boys drove past with their window rolled down...idk if they were catcalling us or being assholes but they yelled something random at us and I couldn't figure out wtf they possibly said, but it sounded like barking or some shit...
          
          Anygays, after that happened and we got off the tank some preppy girls ran up and sprinted across the park over to my mom. When we looked back they were climbing on top of the tank. Then after that my brother and his friend wanted to get pushed on the merry-go-round so me and my friend ran over and pushed them. After like maybe a minute 2 random little boys ran over and hopped on the merry-go-round too and one of them kept saying shit like "I swear they just said they're gonna go molest kids" and deadass, we were NOT talking abt ts bro </3
          BUT THEN-
          The preppy girls from before ran over and hopped on as well...
          Then all the boys were like "Is that as fast as you can push?" Oh idk, maybe if your fat ass got up and pushed it would go faster - plus there's like 7 goddamn kids on it. However, ts was not the end of the tomfuckery I witnessed firsthand </3
          [Just for context, my friend has her hair cut really short like a stereotypical boy would have]
          Deadass, one of the random boys went "Why does that boy look kinda like a girl?"
          I DON'T FUCKING KNOW TIMMY
          MAYBE BCUZ SHE IS A FUCKING GIRL
          
          The misgendering goes crazy chat </3
          [I've been asked by a little girl before if I was a girl or a boy...just bcuz I was wearing a more masculine outfit that day..[I deadass should've said neither-]]