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new username !!

should i try to write again 

omg wow how are y'all , its been forever

Changed my user so many times you all probs don't know who i am anymore :p
          
          hi! my name is phi  or ana! most people on this account know me as the latter. I usually write bkdk but i switch it up occasionally :) 
          
          old users : rqidens_ae rqidens phianae izuatsuz yqlanxs yqlanxss etc.

Katsuki hates Deku. 
          
          He hates his creepy ass eyes and the way they show too much emotion than he's comfortable with.
          
          He hates the way he comes to watch him fly, with adoration he doesn't fucking deserve. 
          
          He hates his complacent excuses and his stalker gaze that's always been there.
          
          He hates how he's perfect and he hates how he got married to somebody that wasn't him. 
          
          He hates that he has to fly without Izuku there and he hates that nothing is gonna change his love for him because that feeling won't go away however much he shoves it down the drain.

If everything that flies eventually falls, Katsuki would be okay with that because he knows Izuku will always be on the ground waiting to catch him because he liked the ground, where he gets to see Katsuki fly a mile high but whether it be the measly 8' jump or a new record, it would never matter to him because it would be enough. He hadn't known how it was possible but each time he flew, the boy fell harder in love as the other fell from the sky. And Katsuki was okay with that, because when he flies and reaches heaven, he knows it will never compare to the heaven he reached with Izuku, because it was true, Izuku grounded him. Izuku was the person who made him feel lonely in the sky all by himself. But that was okay because everything that flies, does in fact, eventually fall. And when he falls, he knows Izuku will catch him. Because for each other, they'll always be Right Here Waiting, and they won't need to play Piano In The Dark and they won't have to say Goodbye because their relationship was where the sky met the ground. Because Izuku grounded Katsuki. And Katsuki made Izuku feel like flying. And no matter how much either of them fell from those clouds that the sun shone through and made them glow, They would be there to catch each other. Because love feels like flying. And everything that flies eventually falls.
          
          But when Izuku asks Katsuki if he needs to play Piano in The Dark and there's no longer somebody to jump for, nobody to catch him when he falls and no green, sparkling eyes shimmering when he jumped in the first place, his world falls apart and he thinks of all their issues and feels his heart breaking once more.
          
          And fuck, when Izuku stands on that altar and he takes a couple shots to make it easier for him, walking away as the familiar song that broke his heart each time it played, Goodbye echoes quietly in his ears as Izuku smiles and recites his vows to his lover.
          
          Lmao, what is this :sob:
          OH WELL