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Why does it always had to be me 

Missing him so bad. Like so so bad. 

Im hurt. So much. I just want you to be honest. Not to me but to yourself. I want you to know which is the best. I dont want you to live in guilty, sayang. I trust you. Thats okay if you want to go and visit her. Shes sick. I can understand that. Im sorry that i cried just now. Because the conversation you send to me really broke my heart. She loves you. She really does. Even she already had a boyf, her mind still on you. I know since im a woman too.

I miss you, sayang 

I am sorry because im the reason you got all fcked up. Im seriously sorry. I know you got hurt so much because of me but this time, I really felt that Ive hurt you. I give you pain and it slowly killing you. Im sorry, sayang. Sincerely sorry. I know youre mad and I know that you wont easily forgive me. I hurt you too much this time and I know youre really fcked up with me. Im sorry. again and again. seriously sorry.

damn. it feels hurt readung your tweets. oh my. i dont put such hopes on you but still it feels damn hurt. it feels like ive been betrayed and it slowly killing me. fuck. i hate this feeling. the hell la. this is why i never wanted to let any guy to get in my life. FUCK LA. haihhhhh. this is such a disappointing to me. i hate it. you treat like im your everything but then you end up making me sad. how much pain do i have to endure to let this feeling slips away? i dont want you. please stay awak from me. lets just make a distance. you and your ways and iam with my ways. shitz. 

its kind of disappointing when your best buddies forgot your birthday. its like they dont even cared about you at all. its true. people say, people tend to forget something that doesnt mean anything to them. its really true. i just cant accept that they forgot my birthday. its trully hurt me. 

so hey guys. i hope you all enjoy reading my masterpiece. lul. so, heres the point. first of all, happy eid mubarak, everyone! secondly, in this beautiful month, i would like to apologize all my wrong doing, also my typing error, my sucks grammar and so on. im really sorry. still working on with my grammar. thirdly, proudly to say that ive survived one month as a university student and yes im proud of it. ahaks. fourtly, you guys rock! fifthly, i love myself. hahaha
          
          thank you.
          
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happy eid mubarak! 

so, hello everyone. so, here i am. before leaving the house to pursue my study away from home located like 163 km if im not mistaken. i really hope that my first masterpiece, Music Maniac will get your attention and please read that book. rn, im working on my second book. starting tomorrow, ill be very busy with ya know, this 3rd june was the registration day and walawa, i am officially university student! ill try to update the second book when IM NOT BUSY. ill look forward on new books to add to my now empty library. so, suggest me some books! and one last thing, before i go, i wanted to apologize and all if my book maybe hurt your feelings or whatever.
          
          just wish me the best! thank you everyone xx
          
          p/s: i know theres none who woild really care my long update but still i want to update it