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ok so... i still love the plot i've been working on for that hunger games fic i mentioned BUT... bc i care abt it so much and would actually want to devote time to writing it beautifully, i've also started another fic that is just kind of silly goofy... and yet i love it also... and it's because i'm in my the 100 rewatch phase. yes it's true teen fiction dystopia has taken over my brain space and it's serious... but might have to start posting my silly goofy little bellamy blake fic soon bc why have i already written 100 pages of it?? that's crazy!

the level of crazy i am is that i've already had to write two 9-page final papers in the last couple of days and need to write a 10-page and 8-page final paper within the next week, but in the midst of all of this, i started plotting a hunger games fic bc i've been back in my hunger games era. but in other news... i'm fucking cooking. like i LOVE the planning i've done so far. which is exciting considering that after this week, i'm off of school for like three months lol

thinking about the fact that a lot of the main characters i write are girlies who have commitment issues and do not want to get into long term relationships and wondering what that says about me as an individual. something something child of divorce something something

saw spoilers for end of obx season 4... haven't even started the second half of the season yet... don't know how to now bc i don't think i'm ready for all that

i discovered a tragedy today. i've been planning a fic for literally at this point like two years and part of my notes app bits about that fic included fandom-related tiktoks that i linked in my notes app. i just tried to open some of them only to discover that apparently all old tiktok links are broken and i have little to nothing notated next to them that describes how to find them again. tragedy has struck. all my perfect saved headcannons are gone

guys fun fact i love politics so watching the last few days unfold has been equally terrifying and fascinating for me. understanding the level of voter enthusiasm is honestly a blast of a topic to explore so this has been kinda cool for me :))). i feel like i have hope in this election for the first time in a while. go kamala! we can talk abt your flaws post-november!

NEW STORY ALERT! NEW STORY ALERT! obx girlies, pls pls pls go check out "miss americana," a jj x oc story. seems fitting that my last update was abt ms swift and now i am announcing my story titled after one of her songs. 
          anyways, i have been working on and off on this story for a long time so i thought it was abt time to share it. lmk what you guys think! thank you for the ongoing support <333

ttpd i love you. thank you ttpd for briefly alleviating my horrific perpetual burnout. anthology you did for a moment kill me when i realized at 2am i would not at any time soon be going to bed (i am running on four hours of sleep) but i love you so much. aaron dessner you will always be famous. tay you're a visionary. ttpd i love you

reading back through parts of such great heights at the moment and despite the fact that i wrote the entirety of what i'm rereading BEFORE i met the person i'm thinking of, i think steve and mickey are pretty much a reflection of my dynamic with one of my best friends. to the point where reading back through it right now after we've had several discussions of "what are we?" a tad painful :)))). what. a. blast.

omg hey??? well first of all happy new year and i hope you all had a great holiday season. it's been a crazy couple of months. i've been updating what i have when i've thought of it but i haven't done much writing bc i was in a new city and meeting a shit ton of people and packing my schedule to the brim with things way out of my comfort zone and it was kinda the best time of my life thus far and now it's over and i've been back at home for like a month and that abrupt change has kind of thrown be into a rut in many senses and has taken a huge toll on my mental health :))). i miss my friends more than words can explain but they are unfortunately scattered all over the country, some even outside of the country. anyway, you don't care. the point of this is that i have unfortunately not been writing like at all but i really miss it. i keep waiting for the moment when i'll finally have the spark that will reignite my love for it but until that comes, i hope you enjoy what i have out so far. the love on the journalist is as always overwhelming so thank you for that. hopefully i'll see y'all again soon.