My name is zoey, i am currently 22 yrs old and I've decided to take my own life on my birthday which is today
You might not know and u'll probably never will but i wanna told u why i did it
I was diagnosed with severe depression and borderline disorder when i was 17, i failed my exams to get into college five times and i was one of the few people who sucked this exam for this long, i have a careless father and a cruel Narcissistic mother who loves only her male children, she told me that i was born by mistake since i was eleven and kept saying that me being alive today is cause she couldn't afford an abortion back then because she never wanted a girl in the first place
I'm listening to family business song rn writing my final words to u stranger cuz i have no friends
I am sick of feeling numb and heavy all the damn time
I'm sick of trying to get into college
I'm sick of running after med school
I'm sick of sleeping 20h a day because it's the only way for me to stop the pain
I wasn't a bad person, i didn't hurt anyone on purpose
I wish i was born normal too, just like my mother wanted
By the moment I turn 23, I won't be alive to see it, I've never had a cake with candles to blow on my birthday but imma make a wish anyway
" Please god forgive me for taking my life with no right for me to but u know how hard it was and.. im sure that u're the only one who won't judge me, please let me be ur uninvited faithful guest.. amen"
