@xojazznicole
sometimes i’m awake at four am and think about how nice of a relationship i could’ve had with her if it wasn’t for the fact that we had feelings for each other when i was still in the acceptance-denial stage and would hurt her, when i would say “i wish you were a boy”
rewatched one piece la since i didn’t go to school for the whole school week except monday and tuesday, n e wayss i wanna write a nami fic cus emily rudd so fine n i always had a big fat crush on nami when my uncle forced me to watch op with him when i was younger but last time i wrote a draft of the one piece fic i was gonna do back in 2020-21 i cried n deleted it all lol
why is everything halloween themed already like lord i haven’t even gone back to school yet
father’s day and i’m currently thinking about how i was the last youngest grandchild to actually know my grandpa. like have memories and stuff. like my little cousin was the youngest grandchild at the time but she was only a baby who didn’t know anything. like my younger cousins and step cousins only know him through our memories, photos and videos
TO BE CONTINUED MI PIMXHE CULO IBDOKT WANNA WIAR A YEAR
on the verge of posting my stories and never updating them!!
of course everything about me always have to end up as being it about someone else. i could be talking about me feeling suicidal and yet everything ends up about how she feels about me being suicidal. “oh well i have it worse, im the one in and out for appointments” like okay as if most of my life i wasn’t in hospitals most of the time“i gave you everything” yeah k keep me alive and only bought me shit because you knew it’d keep me away from you because you only wanted to focus on your precious son. because whatever i feel about something obviously doesn’t matter
idk if it’s jus bc it’s friday, but today was actually a really good day today
why does my family always rely on me for everything from routines to having company. like “oh so now this family doesn’t matter to you anymore?” like oh sorry that i have other family that isn’t you. like they always deprive me of seeing my family from my dad’s side. istg i mention that i want to go to my cousin’s quince and all of a sudden i’m choosing my dads side of my family nd i suddenly want nothing to do with them
they literally invite people i don’t know or don’t know like their friends nd shit but when i wanna invite my dads side of the family, all of a sudden i’m just gonna shun out my moms side like and have no room, like??? like if you start bitching about how there’s gonna be no room for them to sit, then fucking don’t invite and bring along random ass people i don’t know or don’t like. like i’m so sorry that i want people who’s known me since i was born and care about me to celebrate an important event in my life then some random fuck who’s only there to get shitfaced and couldn’t give a fuck about me
will forever be mad at the old people in my town in the 90s rejecting scream to be filmed at our school
