@hotgirlrants hello ! - a brilliant query; thank you so much ! I love hearing what people think and consider with Peomise Me Ruin ! I never wanted Y/N to be one-noted, as despite her being a flat base with the reader in mind, I cannot stand stories following a trope with Y/N representing the baseline of a personal insert. Y/N is a generally insecure character within the storyline, as it’s intended to represent the general toxicity of government indoctrination and how corrupt governmental systems are, especially to women and children. This spreads further into her psychology, as because of her isolation, mentally, physically, and biologically to Pandora, she is very aware of her own wish for connectedness and the concept of belonging. This leads to many factors of her self deprecation, especially when issues socially or systematically occur with the Paynga’, even more so within her relationship with Fay’zan. But I do consider her character very emotionally intelligent in how she stands in her relationship with Fay’zan, as she does know that whether she did stand with Fay’zan or not, that wouldn’t change how the future would have looked - especially when it comes to the wars that followed. With motherhood and children, even more so. It’s very complicated for the two of them, as it’s something they haven’t spoken of explicitly, due to their own personal traumas to do with children, raising children, and being around children. That will come up further into the novel. Fay’zan is very dismissive and avoidant, and Y/N internalises trauma, making the topic especially tricky within their relationship.
Thank you so much for asking and don’t hesitate to drop any more queries ! Thank you !! Xx
