‎ivy

THANK YOU FOR FEEDING US QWEEN <3

hey guys, long time no talk! <3
          here's a little update on my future writing. 
          
          for the past couple of months, i've been in a really healthy state of mind. i've worked hard on my mental health so i could be better for those around me.
          
          but, i know i've been neglecting my online self as well. 
          
          i also understand that there's some people who wish i would do a continuation of my book 'raw' which is the whole reason of this announcement.
          
          when i was writing that plot, i was reflecting a lot of the trauma and pain from my personal life, desperately hoping someone would see that i was hurting, too.
          
          i was a senior in high school, at rock bottom looking for a reason to continue. i couldn't see a future for myself.
          
          so when i say this, i really am sorry i haven't given you all something to resonate with or look forward to.
          
          wattpad has been such a safe place for me. i opened up the app whenever i felt alone and sad, to just jot down my thought and feelings.
          
          when those little updates became into something bigger, i wanted to make something out of it.
          
          there's no deeper meaning as to why i decided to use newjeans to represent my daily hatred for school and how i never wanted to do anything. danielle was the girl i could see myself in more.
          
          i wrote, proofread, and published. that's it. now it just feels like a chore to write anything.
          
          if it sounds like i'm leading up towards the big, "i'm quitting because i suddenly got better and i no longer need wattpad–” that's not the case at all.
          
          i'm typing this in hopes that maybe one day i'll regain that love for writing again, in a much healthier way, when i'm not writing on the fuel of my overwhelming sadness. 
          
          i really do appreciate and love each and every single one of you who have given me the precious time of their days to give my work a chance.
          
          you guys help me understand that i'm worth so much more, and for that i thank you from the bottom of my heart. <3

miss ur writing ivy, pls come back soon

the urge to just scream at my family and rip my hair out is so overwhelming rn

When I watch New Jeans' newer vids I think of your writing, hoping you can come back feeling better <3

I love your account 

what r ur thoughts of newjeans’s new songs???????

just would like for you to know that your stories have helped me and that i will always support your choices to the end :)

HEY BABES !! HOW R U?? ^^

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