‎ivy

@hooniezzz aww, thank you kindly, hoon!
            as always, you've been such a loyal and dearest friend hoon, reading your endearing messages and encouraging words did help me through the difficult times more than you think. i just hope my words have been equally worthy, i think the absolute world of you and just hearing about your days is such a blessing and i don't think mere words can express the amount of pride i hold in you and your unshakable will!! you know i will forever believe in you and your future endeavors, hoon :( i know i can seem like i don't care but i truly do, our friendship is something that makes me richer for knowing you! i know all of your hard and diligent work will pay off hoon, you spend your whole life being patient and not a single second of it is easy, so i'm much more than just proud of you for continuing to lift yourself up and carrying onward, i really do hope the best for you hoon. you are destined for beautiful things, and when you earn those beautiful things, i hope you can believe that you are deserving of each and every one. i love you, hoon! i'm always thinking of you <333

@xoxokty hi ivyy :)) that’s great to hear from you!! you truly deserve all the good things coming your way!! as for me, things haven’t been the best. it’s been a bit of a mess... but i didn’t let it consume me. i held myself together and even found a reason to smile while celebrating my youngest brother’s birthday. his smile is contagious my heart hurts (in a good way, of course.. hehe) :( im going to spoil him even more in the years to come. btw, congratulations, ivy!!!! you've made it this far despite all the hardships you've been through! :D i’m seriously so proud of you, really. the fact that you’re graduating and getting into the school you’ve always wanted to go?? that’s honestly so cool bro. i’m super excited for you too, ivy! ^^ and anyways, im going to be okay. recently, im trying to find a job, but most of them told me i need to be officially 18 yrs old to hire me :/.. but im not giving up. i'll tell you once i got a job though!!

@hooniezzz HIIII HOON!! yes, may our friendship last for eternities to come! my may has been beautiful, how is your month? i passed all of my finals and i'm going graduate from my community college next week! i'm so excited, i'm gonna continue my studies at a school i've always wanted to go to, ahhhh i'm soo excited!! anyways, how are you hoon? get back to me as soon as you can!! <3333

@xoxokty HI IVYYY :>>> and no worries, ivy!! u definitely deserve it!!
            yes, at least we have each other <33 actually, when i start fasting, i couldn't last more than a few days too! had to cry my heart out just to take a sip of water lol.. how dramatic :P.. and yes! hopefully what we hope for in april will come true. if not, let's face the obstacles together :)) im pretty sure your hard work will be pay off because you've put your dedication to it!! to answer your question, these days i'm quite busy celebrating eid, having to go to one house to another, but it's worth the ride and fatigue because they gave me money :>> other than that, im worried about my grades. yk, the big exams one. the government already confirmed the date and i'm scared. my father kept reminding me. there's some days i feel so tired.. i haven't been taking care of myself well. but i'll manage!! :)) anyways, may i ask why are you scared to write again? :( i've been thinking about writing too, but i'm not sure when will i start because it's been so long.. :') thank you so much for the kind words! i really appreciate it! yk i would wait for your reply, ivy :))), and i'll make sure to take breaks and eat well. i hope you do the same. i love ya ivy !! take care !! <333

@hooniezzz aww thank you for your kind words, hoon <3
            i'm glad you're still pushing through the hard times to your very best extent! it's not easy to, especially when you've got a lot to do as a student lol, but at least we have each other. i'm glad you got through your fasting, i tried to fast once but couldn't last more than a few days. still, that's a very young age to start at LOL but i understand. i hope april is much more lenient for both of us, Lord knows we need it haha, but what have you been doing these days? you know me, still studying and working like crazy, but i'm getting somewhere that i'm much satisfied with. my hard work will pay off, i know that much! i've also been thinking of writing again but even now, just the thought alone makes me dread continuing it. anyway, enough about me, get back to me as soon as you can! thank you again for being so patient and remember to eat well! you work very hard, so don't forget to reward yourself with some rest <33

@xoxokty hii ivy!! :')) i'm so sorry to hear that this month was being terrible to you :(( also i don't mind waiting for your reply! i know you're busy with your assignments or even your life!! so don't apologize for not taking the time to check on me ^^.. well, i guess i'm not doing well either somehow, but i tried to get through it like just any other day lol.. and i get how you're feeling because these days life has been frustrating to me as well. anyways, you're a tough person, ivy. i mean it >:D and i hope that my prayers will hug you when my arms can't whenever you feel like everything is wrong. may it feels like the warmest embrace to remind you that you're never alone bcz i'm always with you !! .. to answer ur question, i did well, because i've been used to fasting since i was like 11 years old i think. though i got my period on the second week of ramadhan (i can't fast for that) and yeah wtvr i still managed to get through this ramadhan and celebrate eid tomorrow !! and ivy, i'm always thankful for you to come into my life, to God for letting us meet in this lifetime and form such a beautiful friendship just through the screen :)) don't forget to take care of yourself, ivy. i love you bunches too!! <333

@hooniezzz hii, hoon! 
            i'm doing swell, i guess you could say. i'm well in my studies and my mental health is okayish right now, but i appreciate you checking in! i hope your valentine's day was lovely and i wish you endless courage to do the scary things!! it's heart warming to know that you thought of me even in the darkest of times, i hope i can continue being a beacon in your life that gives you unwavering hope! hopefully after i graduate, i'll be able to be in contact with you more often, because i miss you equally so :( anyway, hoon i hope your day/night is so blessed that you don't have the time to even worry about what troubles you, i love you times ten! take care of yourself <33

@xoxokty thank you for your thoughtful words, ivy :(( it means a lot to hear that from you. i'm glad to hear you're hanging in there despite all the projects and deadlines... you're handling it so well, though :) and i admire you for that! and also, your prayers truly mean the world to me. i feel just as blessed to have you as my friend. let’s both keep pushing forward. don’t forget to take care of yourself too! i love you lots, ivy <3 

@hooniezzz oh hi hoon <3
            i'm hanging in there, still here lol. i'm thankful that you found time to reach out and update me, i'm sorry you're having such a hard time but just like any other bad patch, you're capable of growing from this pain! remember you don't belong to your pain or grief!! and no, of course you didn't sound creepy LOL but i've missed you as well, i've seriously just been doing homework and projects. i swear all of my professors just hand out projects, give me a deadline and say good luck haha but it's nothing i'm not able to handle. i will pray for your well being before i go to bed tonight, hoon! every day i'm blessed with the gift of being your friend, don't give up! <3

@hooniezzz good morning, hoon! 
            i'm still hanging in there and i'm getting a lot done, but i'm barely keeping up. i'm sorry to hear about your religion exam, you tried and that's all that matters right now! you're still here and trying your best to make it through, which is an accomplishment in itself!! i'm very proud of you, hoon! it's not an easy task to take care of your mental when you're under high amounts of pressure, and i'm super happy that i can be that kind of outlet for you! don't ever feel like you're pressuring me with updates on your life! despite your relentless studying and exam-taking, you find time at the end of your long days to still greet me warmly. never stop being you, hoon, those days where can shine brightly and beautifully are still here and in your near future. don't give up hope!! i believe in you ten times INFINITY!!! thanks for existing and granting me the ultimate blessing of being your friend, i hope you can share more of your life with me without the worries of overdoing it. almost is never enough as people say, but i think in this context, it's a good saying. as always, i hope you're taking good care of yourself hoon, you deserve the utmost best! love you bunches and bunches <33333

@xoxokty good morning to you, ivy :)) It's night here for me—currently 7:50 PM, hehe! thank you so much for your kind words and encouragement, it really means a lot to me :(( and it sounds like you've been going through so much too—i'm sorry to hear you're feeling burnt out. please make sure to take care of yourself and rest when you can!! you're doing amazing, and i really appreciate you checking in even with everything on your plate. we'll both keep pushing forward together!

@hooniezzz good morning, hoon <3
            i apologize i haven't updated you on my life, it's been very busy and i'm burnt out already but i'm still here! i'm sorry about your history exam, but it's the effort you made that counts! if you do have to retake it all over again, be confident in yourself and believe you can ace it!! you're very smart, hoon, don't let failing ruin that for you <33

@xoxokty  :(( i'm sorry to hear that you're dreading today, but it's completely normal to feel a bit anxious before your return to campus! :)) and thanks for your kind words about my time with my peers — i'm trying to make the most of it and enjoy myself without worrying too much. just promise me you'll be kind to yourself too. take care, ivy! <333

@hooniezzz good morning, hoon! it's eight in the morning, and i'm just waking up. i don't know why, but i'm dreading today. i don't have to do anything, but i suppose it's just me being anxious for my return to campus here in a few days. i'm glad you're basking in all the time you have left with your peers, and i hope you can spend those days happily and free of worries. as always, i love you bunches as well, and i know you'll take care of yourself, just remember to be kind to yourself <333