@xvenixrova isn’t your dream to publish books, if I’m not mistaken? If that’s the case, keep in mind that you are given dreams fir a reason. They may be difficult to achieve, but once you do, you’ll be able to look back on times like this and see how far you’ve come as an author and as a person.
Believe me when I say that your readers are rooting for you to succeed. They love you, even if they don't know you personally. So don't worry, they'll always be patient. Take myself for example: I last read one of your books when I was 13, and now I'm back three years later. I haven't forgotten about you. That's a big statement. And, once again, dreams come a size too big so we can grow into them. They take time ;)