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ohhh i miss my wattpad era hays

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          tmi: i thought that nothing special has happened recently but i suddenly remembered that I have been quite productive these past few days. well, it's better than doing nothing. anyway, i'm here to say that 2022 is nearing, and it's scary how time flies so fast. i still feel like i'm still in 2020, missing year 2019. to think that in just a snap, i will soon be a college student, is making me anxious. i wonder if i will do well. if future me is reading this, id like to say that i am proud of u for being still alive. if things hasn't been going well, I'd like u to take a rest, listen to ur current fav music, and sleep. do not overthink too much! keep in mind that u should focus more on present, not in future nor past. present needs u more than those two, okay? and if u are doing great then i am happy for uu! i'd like u to reward urself with doing what u love atm, ex: playing online games. anyway, i am curious if u have won the essay writing contest. though, still proud of u no matter what the outcome be. i love u self! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance! <3

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@xxcusven thats so cute! its nice that you have goals you set for yourself. you were able to form straight english sentences before, and now i cant. ai really took that skill away from. but i guess im still the one to blame. college is nearing and its kind of pressuring me. i honestly still dont know what i really want to do with my life, and i just have this "go with the flow" mindset. whatever happens, happens. ill just let things be instead of stressing myself out with things i really dont have a clue. im glad that i overcame the situation when id overthing about my future often. im focused more on the present now rather than past or future. its something worth clapping for! did u know that i got my report card this friday and i wasnt part of the high honor roll. its just weird cause i really worked hard before just to be achieve that title and now i just dont care. i also came home from camping yesterday, i had fun. i thought senior high school would suck but it really wasnt that bad. i experienced new things i thought i wouldnt. anyway, im just really curious of what my life would be like in college. i hope shes happy and i hope everthings okay. and if not, im here to remind that it will be okay. you'll get through it like you always do. dont give up just yet! and keep on reaching your dreams, i want to be rich and I know you want it too. please be okay. and please, if you have a crush, work on it bro. im almost reaching college and i havent experienced anything romantic yet like pls dont be torpe!!! anyway, after this ill sleep. and im ending this letter na. good night and take care of yourself ❤️
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@xxcusven hey! wanna inform u that my goal atm is to be with high honors again, but this time in f2f classes. it has crossed my mind once that maybe why i'm always striving for the best since then in school, is because i'm not good at anything besides it. BUT STILL you are good at something and that's enough! as of now, i'm actually doing good in academics. though, i still have no one i can call my best friend but itz oki! im able to talk with them, at least. i have class tomorrow but i'm not asleep yet, school starts at 1:00 pm. good night, self! hope u are ok. prioritize yourself and your inner peace. 
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@xxcusven and no, we did not win the essay writing contest. still proud of my past self bec joining the contest was still a huge step for us. as of now, I'm losing the motivation to do my school works. i'm left with 8 more subjects to do this week, and i'm planning to finish it by sunday. my goal atm is to lessen my screen time, and to drink more water, at least 5 cups a day. i hope that future me is having the motivation to do her responsibilities. if it's a no, it's okay, take your time but not too much pls. get your ass up and start working. love u self! spend more time with fam and take care of yourself.
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i told myself that i will sleep early tonight but i didn't. i couldn't resist myself from reading project loki. i just finished the volume and now i am at (?) chapter 37. my day has been a normal yet boring, nothing special happened. i wonder when this cycle of me waking up, eating, browsing internet and going back to sleep will end. i miss face to face classes where i wouldn't use my phone for hours. it's 2:27 am, July 11, 2021.

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@xxcusven I MEANT VOLUME 2 I JUST FINISHED VOLUME 2
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since no one knows me here, i'll make this my freedom wall as well. 

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@xxcusven overthinking has been bugging me every night. i want to stop it but i can't. future scares me. i just want to be at peace forever. NO that doesn't mean i want to die. i don't know what will happen after death so no. i just don't like to feel sad and down. 
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