Nobody's gonna see this but- I wish someone would just take my hand and look me in the eyes and tell me everything is gonna be ok.....but it will never happen cause it won't be ok I won't be ok......nothings right...everything is wrong and I feel like I'm being buried alive ;( these dreams are toxic...but I have to keep it all to myself. Sarah.....shes tired of my problems and morgana well she just doesn't care.......and I don't find the courage to talk because when I do nobody listens and nobody cares so why try......I'm a waste of life and space. I'm a mistake and a failure....nobody will accept me everyone's too good for me everyone is going somewhere in life while I'm just trapped in my mind and over thinking everything.....end me please...I'm asking you to end these feelings emotions and misery for the good of everyone. I love everyone so much I'm just not sure if its the same. I'm forgotten, left, and stepped on and I'm weak ugly and selfish I can't do anything right. I don't even know myself anymore I don't know who I am or what's happened to me to have this kind of mindset and also I thought if I didn't go to sleep.....the nightmares would stop but I was wrong.....I was dreaming in class today only I wasn't asleep and I ran out due to my breathing issues once again.....its all in my head, Its all me, I'm the monster, I'm the nightmare.