Recorded phone call, Feb 14, 2018 (you serenading me)
I just listened to our recorded phone call, 3 nights after i decided to let go of you for real. It makes me want to cry again. Damn. I miss you so bad. Makes me just want to call you right NOW. But i know that'll only ruin everything. I hope your good. I hope your not letting yourself be drowned with the problems were in. I hope that day will come, wherein i can stare at you and listen to your rants about your day and how you hate people without feeling afraid that you might disappear then decide to shut me down again on a weekend when your with her. I silently hoping for that day where you can give me your all without feeling any hesitations; with me being your priority ahead of her. But for now, let me just miss you and feel the pain in my heart. Let me just cry on a sad love song. Let me cry because of you. Let me just cry it out. Let me just feel it because it only proves that i am deeply in love with you, my love.