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Hi guys i know its been long since you guys have last heard of me and i'm so sorry for that. Like i disapeared for almost a year?! Anyways i'm here to explain the reason why. So recently i've Had no motivation in writing stories nor reading them. Like its not only that i'm been not writing i havnt touched wattpad to even read. As some of y'all know i've bewn struggling a bit with my mental health since i told y'all about it almost like a year ago. Basically what happened is that it got worse. I stopped eating i didnt sleep and every night i kept on crying and crying. Idk if i told y'all about it but my ex bf got mad at me and told me to just commit suicide. And bc my mental health was already so bad i didnt take it personally but it did hurt. Cause i loved him ofc. And he also knew that i was hurting myself at the time. And around 2024 december before he told me That, we broke up and became friends. I told him it was fine. But it was obviously not fine. Cause then i always thought that i was the problem. And my parents also kept fighting and shouting at me and hitting me more often. And its there when i actually tried killing myself. It didnt work. I lived. I'm not going in details about that but i started thinking about it again after he told me to kill myself. I started seeing a therapist and attended therapy. But soon enough stopped. A few months ago i checked in with my old therapist and she said that the severity of how deep i am in depression is not healthy and that i should seek proper help. Cause my therapist was actually a secret from my family. And my therapist told me that i might have to start medication. I refused cause for medication you would need a parental consent or something like that. A parents would have to go with you to take the medication. And thats the thing. But i have a new bf and i love him very much. I still wont be active much here but occasionally you will see me online..anyways bye love y'all have a great day peace out

Hi guys how is everyone doing. I know i have been offline for like ages. But i have been working on a little project. I'm here to ask. Do you guys want a proluge i'm working on??? I'm done with some chapters. Its not a fanfiction tho. Its my own story. So what do you guys think. Should i publish it???

Hi hows y'all doing hoping good. Btw its morning right now. Anyways what do you guys think i should do for graduation goddes braids or twists. I cant decide

y'all i am giving up on writing this story that i wanted to enter in the contest cause since last week i've been having writers block. like i cant think of ideas and i am supposed to have 50.000 words by today. and i still dont have any ideas. like i do, but their mostly fiction or like things that are imposible. like i cant. my brain is not braining

Ok so i know i'm late to announce this bit as you guys saw i haven't updated my books for a long time. Well thats because all of my attention is going to this new book i'm making to enter in the wattys2025. I really wanna submit but the problem is its on the day of my exams. And yes on top of that i have exames next week. So i'll be on a hiatus longer than i expected but i just need to finish this. Anyways bye hope you all have a good day bye. Love you peace out
          

So guess what. I lost another person that i cared about. Remember that boy i told yiu guys about i finally blocked him bc i knew he didnt care about me anymore and that i'm just burdening him with my texts. But then 2 days after that today i was talking to another guy friend of mine and he told me i should talk to his gf about it cause she has experience. But then idk what i did but sudenly said he didnt wanna talk rn then i asked if i did something wrong or if i said something wrong to his gf. Then he said no. And i said if you want to talk when your ready i'm here but then he said he didnt trust me anymore. We literally told each other our problems and i was finally getting to be good friends with him. 

Sis, I have a suggestion for a story about Ali x Alicia. In Ejen Ali movie 2, it was said that Alicia lost her memory. So the story is that Alicia lost her memory while on a mission, and Ali tried to restore Alicia's memory by remembering Ali's memories with Alicia. It's just a suggestion, sis.

This is why i will never give my mom my opinion. My teachers were so dramatic saying i would be failing this class and that ii have many fails, while i only have 3 i could get one more point and pass just like that, but then she goes all defencive and ugh its so frustrating like they dont trust me. Like i swear my teacher and principal are like my second mothers

You ever had that feeling like your being ignored by the person that has become a part of your daily life. Like you always thought they were annoying when calling but secretly you loved their attention. 
          
          
          Like they call, text, chat, snap and talk. But thrn after a while they just......stop. And now they start ignoringnyou and your like ok maybe their busy in reality you realize they just dont want you anymore cause they've found someone else. 
          
          
          And when you ask them whats wrong and why they've been ignoring they just say:" i just dont wan to ok, please just give me space ok i need time for myself". 
          
          
          
          While in reality needing time for themselves is just needing time for the person they've replaced you with. It hurts doesn't it. And then when you try to reach your other friends....their also busy. That's a pain on a whole different level. 

Thanks for the vote <33