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HAPPY NEW YEEAAAAASR XD!!!!
          

Lol sis, Raya's my nickname too...

You guys its literally almost 11pm here but i really f***cked up with this one. Look i have a friend thsts s boy and he's been suicidal, and he has tried many many ways to end his life and i was always there to stop him. But heres the thing he is a over confident person always curses and only thinks of himself. When i was his friend i was always there to listen to his stories, end stuff thad had happend to him. But the thing is when i tried to tell him my problems he would always say dont care dont give a shit and it hurts alot. And he was recently diagnosed with stage one cancer and i felt really bad for him. But today he told me he had a gf. But then she broke up with him and it wasn't the first one. Then he came and asked me to be his girlfriend sfter literly saying no one would date me and i was so confused that i started breaking down. And he started blaming himself and long story short he's gonna attempt suicide. So i actually under stand his issues cause believe it or not i have tried many ways to end myself to when i was a kid. But i really did it this time and this time i cant even stop him. Ugh what should i do???

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Do you ever have that feeling when your with your parents it sometimes feel so good you feel like your protected but something in your heart says you cant trust them. Yeah When i'm with my parents it happends and here is the thing this is why i'm distand from family cause, i dont feel like i can trust them. Like, your laughing having the best time of your lives with them, and suddenly its a pain in your heart remembering how they mistreat you. Maybe not all parents are like this but mine are. When i do something wrong the first thing they wanna do is hit me and i have tought myself to endure the pain and now they even wanna forbid me from  talking to ny friends. Today i was having so much fun in the morning but you know what ruined it? My mom was like if you open the door i wont hesitate to hit you. And last time the stick was a freaking 10 or even 30 inch or something like that stick and was like i think 2 inch wide like bro come on. This is the reason why i also changed idc about anything anymore. When i tell you i was such a happy and inocent person just like thorn but then things mest up and i became distand but yh i felt that what she said i'm trying to endure the pain of when my nom says hurtfull words but i know i cant do anything about it. People say i'm depressed like its a joke specialy my classmates they often joke around saying i'm depressed and i always answer i know. I know that. But the thing is it does not matter how depressed i am i'm not suicidal not doing or atleast thinking about slefharm cause i think its silly doing those things. And thw thing is I NEVER cried infront of my bff's due to my emotions. I never let it out. I let my emotions out when i'm busy writing and the reason why i dont post them is bc those stories are private i cant share them cause i know damn well my aunt is gonna read them.  I'm sorry if i made you guys listen to this but its the only way i cab talk it out. You dont have to read it if you don't want to thx anyways :) 

ㅗㅑ ㄷㅍㄷ교ㅐㅜ, sorry my keyboard was on korean and yes i cab write korean. But only on text i can write normal things and i'm happy that i can cause i have alot t of people tgat i need to translate to.but reading korean is gonna be hard cause litteral Korean is not the same as real korean so i'm trying my best to actually speaking or writing it. But i am not using korean to speak it cause i have never met anyone from korea or malaysia cause i also speak malaysian so yh. My keyboard does not have Chinese cause otherwise i would try and learn it cause i can write a litle chinese but i do have Vietnamese. But anyways hope you have a good day bye love y'all

Hi guys how y'all doing, i just had to say this that if you dont see me online reading your stories, its not bc i dont like them i'm busy with some stuff like i have a crocheting business and i have alot of orders and i also have exames to do so i cant really be online much but at school maybe i'll be reading them but maybe not, cause i'm not allowed to bring my phone i use my bff phone, and also yh i know whaty'll thinking a 12 year old having a business but yh i have to go just a quick reminder i need to have these orders by next vriday and that in 3 days and there alot of orders and i have a english test tomorrow and i have not studied at all i have not slept in 2 days i just cant fall asleep so yh i hope y'all understand bye, have a good day

Ok guys i got 2 ideas either i make a oneshot of the i'll never leave you but darkside or i make a proposal one i have literly no ideas for the onshots maybe ya'll can give me ideas cause i'm out of them plssssss i need ideasT~T

Hi guys how y'all doing. Hope everybody's ok and well. I just wanted to ask. Did you EVER did something so embarrassing and so stupud that you couldn't think right and did something even more stupid. Like today i was like like theb me try the kids Bob version of the tyla dance and i did it on camera, but the thing is i was on the wrong youtube chanel and then i felt so stupid that i accidentally posted on that youtube chanel. And then i tried to delete it but then i started getting views and then i tried saving it to my phone so that i atleast have it. And then when i went to delete it i already got views welp they weren't much thank goodness but still nobody and i mean nobody should've seen that video. And here is where my stupidity comes and takes over....anyways bye love you always bye