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Hi guys. Hows it going. Hope its y'all are ok. Idk i havnt been feeling it. And i uhh. Idk. I relapsed today. Again. Idk what i'm supposed to go with this, ig i just want to vent. Idk. Anyways i should probably go. Bye have a nice day

Hi everyone. I hope y'all are doing well and having a great day. I'm not really feeling my best. I'm not sick or anything. But like....i dont know what i'm feeling. I'm mentally not ok. And i dont know what to do. At this point i'm just venting. But yh hope y'all are having a good day. Its night here where i am so goodnight

Hi guys i know its been long since you guys have last heard of me and i'm so sorry for that. Like i disapeared for almost a year?! Anyways i'm here to explain the reason why. So recently i've Had no motivation in writing stories nor reading them. Like its not only that i'm been not writing i havnt touched wattpad to even read. As some of y'all know i've bewn struggling a bit with my mental health since i told y'all about it almost like a year ago. Basically what happened is that it got worse. I stopped eating i didnt sleep and every night i kept on crying and crying. Idk if i told y'all about it but my ex bf got mad at me and told me to just commit suicide. And bc my mental health was already so bad i didnt take it personally but it did hurt. Cause i loved him ofc. And he also knew that i was hurting myself at the time. And around 2024 december before he told me That, we broke up and became friends. I told him it was fine. But it was obviously not fine. Cause then i always thought that i was the problem. And my parents also kept fighting and shouting at me and hitting me more often. And its there when i actually tried killing myself. It didnt work. I lived. I'm not going in details about that but i started thinking about it again after he told me to kill myself. I started seeing a therapist and attended therapy. But soon enough stopped. A few months ago i checked in with my old therapist and she said that the severity of how deep i am in depression is not healthy and that i should seek proper help. Cause my therapist was actually a secret from my family. And my therapist told me that i might have to start medication. I refused cause for medication you would need a parental consent or something like that. A parents would have to go with you to take the medication. And thats the thing. But i have a new bf and i love him very much. I still wont be active much here but occasionally you will see me online..anyways bye love y'all have a great day peace out

Hi guys how is everyone doing. I know i have been offline for like ages. But i have been working on a little project. I'm here to ask. Do you guys want a proluge i'm working on??? I'm done with some chapters. Its not a fanfiction tho. Its my own story. So what do you guys think. Should i publish it???

Hi hows y'all doing hoping good. Btw its morning right now. Anyways what do you guys think i should do for graduation goddes braids or twists. I cant decide

y'all i am giving up on writing this story that i wanted to enter in the contest cause since last week i've been having writers block. like i cant think of ideas and i am supposed to have 50.000 words by today. and i still dont have any ideas. like i do, but their mostly fiction or like things that are imposible. like i cant. my brain is not braining

Ok so i know i'm late to announce this bit as you guys saw i haven't updated my books for a long time. Well thats because all of my attention is going to this new book i'm making to enter in the wattys2025. I really wanna submit but the problem is its on the day of my exams. And yes on top of that i have exames next week. So i'll be on a hiatus longer than i expected but i just need to finish this. Anyways bye hope you all have a good day bye. Love you peace out
          

So guess what. I lost another person that i cared about. Remember that boy i told yiu guys about i finally blocked him bc i knew he didnt care about me anymore and that i'm just burdening him with my texts. But then 2 days after that today i was talking to another guy friend of mine and he told me i should talk to his gf about it cause she has experience. But then idk what i did but sudenly said he didnt wanna talk rn then i asked if i did something wrong or if i said something wrong to his gf. Then he said no. And i said if you want to talk when your ready i'm here but then he said he didnt trust me anymore. We literally told each other our problems and i was finally getting to be good friends with him. 

Sis, I have a suggestion for a story about Ali x Alicia. In Ejen Ali movie 2, it was said that Alicia lost her memory. So the story is that Alicia lost her memory while on a mission, and Ali tried to restore Alicia's memory by remembering Ali's memories with Alicia. It's just a suggestion, sis.

This is why i will never give my mom my opinion. My teachers were so dramatic saying i would be failing this class and that ii have many fails, while i only have 3 i could get one more point and pass just like that, but then she goes all defencive and ugh its so frustrating like they dont trust me. Like i swear my teacher and principal are like my second mothers