tsukki’s slut🫁

killing myself why do i have to be such a bad peraon

whatever, whatever. i dont care. i dont care! fuck you

im sorry i cant help im sorry im sorry im sorry

youre so smart and so pretty and so caring and funny. you think youre boring and theres nothing special abt you but theres so much. i would give anything for you to see yourself through the eyes of others

i dont know how to help i dont know i dont know im so sorry

i feel like a failure bc i cant convimce that i DO love you and youre worth sm and that you deserve sm love

you hate yourself sm and its so hard to watch but i dont want you to stop telling me abt it, i just want you to like yourself even a little bit, im sorry

my brother said my forehead is huge. that my teeth are ugly. that I'm a 5 out of 10. that I don't LOOK like someone who works out. that i have no fashion. i will never be attractive, its terrible to think abt but ye

I want to lose weight. i want to be smaller. i want to be a boy. I want my mental health to get worse. I want to be left alone by my choice, not isolated by force. I want to enjoy the end of a school day but I hate going home. i want a BMI of 14. i want better grades. i want a better gpa. i want a car. i want my phone back. i want my parents to love me. i want to hang out w my sister. i want to see my significant other. i want my friends back. i don't want anyone to hate me. i want to be smarter. i want a car. i want to be more attractive. i want to be quieter. I want to be more likeable. i want to be perfect. i want to be breakable. i want someone to break me. i want the teenager dream. i want to simply not exist. i want to be bony enough to worry people. i want to be more expressive of my feelings. i want to be less attention seeking. i want to be able to open up to a therapist. I want to not feel guilty anymore. i want to be a better person. i want to start everything all over again with the knowledge of how to do things right. i wish I was better. i wish i  was smaller, and i think that finally being skinny enough is the first step to all of these things

no bc out of all nine of me n my siblings, three of us are gay..