This week I read your two works. I am very happy I found you. It is true you do have some grammar mistakes (not as many as it looks like for your apologies), but hey your English is really good, please do not put yourself down for that. I think you are a really brave person, but you don't see the beautiful person inside of you. Please love yourself a little bit more.
Do you know what?? I don't read your stories to analyse your grammar, I read them because you have a beautiful brain and a great heart, or in Jin words " I love your sexy brain" hahaha. Seriously your English is good, all these people reading your plays , can clearly understand you otherwise they wouldn't be able to read till the end.
Regarding your mental health, please, please give yourself time. I can see you really like Suga, he is my bias too, I am quite old myself but in all my years he gave me the best advise I ever heard: when you think that "This is it, I can't take it anymore" please hold in there, just wait, time will take away that anguish and desperation that consumes us, please try to stop thinking and wait because there is a tomorrow that will make it better, even if that tomorrow is not exactly the next day, but for sure the tomorrow that you wait patiently will come.
Please, please take care of yourself, you are not alone, If you ever need to talk, you will find me here. Borahae