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IM LATE AS FUCK BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOUIS

guys i gotta be real for a second
          
          if you know me, like really know me, youd know i joke about not having a father a lot and make little quips about how hes in a jar somewhere random and shit like that bit holy fuck has it had an impact on my life because yes i have had fatherly figures in my life but i always get attached to men so fucking quickly and that's always been an issue, like men who are meant to look out for me, for example teachers and members of the family i ain't related to but have connections with kinda thing, and even my fucking social worker, i seemed to have a massive fucking obsession with, and they all ended up leaving my life. i remember in year nine and ten especially, i went from guy to guy because i didn't know what to do with my life and id always had problems with like, commitment because of issues around fear of abandonment and the like. i know a bunch of my male friends have been deterred in the past because of how much i wanted to speak to them above my female friends, and tried flirting with them and shit like that and im very sorry for any of you here who have been a subject in that. i know exactly why i crave male attention more than any other. my boyfriend has really helped me break old patterns and focus on the positives of life rather than the things that have held me back a lot, and im working on it, i really am. recovery takes time which im willing to put in for him, i just keep having moments where im like "holy shit i didn't realise how bad this actually is" with stuff haha
          
          anyway rant over, i love you all and hope you're having a lush day

guys my boyfriend is napping in my ear cuz we're on call and i just wanna fucking squish him and sit him in my lap and cuddle up to him and hold him close and let him use my tits as pillows so he's comfy and just watch him sleep (he's the cutest motherfucker ive ever met and i love him)

IM BACK MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAG

i like the way your farts sound in my ear 

Hiii, how are you bestie?

*hug* 

i love you baby 

how's everyone holding up? *big hug*

hiiiii pretty boy