So, its been a while; im gonna bet that this isnt going to be seen by anyone until 4 days after i post this. Its a long post too. Brace yourself.
The last time i wrote anything tuc related was back in February, when i released an angst oneshot. Ever since, radio silence from me. Why?
I lost motivation to write COMPLETELY afterwards. On top of that, not only am i s student, i also have a life outside of my phone writing fanfiction. Not only writing, but to edit them in general; (however, my motivation to edit disappeared in august) i've still been deeply immersed in munhana on the sidelines, but ive just lost interest in them, slowly but surely.
And you could say, "oh, but people were waiting for you to come back! They were begging you!" I know. I am completely aware. I saw every comment, dm, and message on my board about updating. Compliment or complaint. Respectful or rude. Now, some of them were really nice about it, but others were more disrespectful, which i think is petty. you dont have a right to start acting rude when im not updating because 1) I'm the author 2) this is my hobby 3) i have a life and 4) you are not paying for my stories.
trust me, im not saying im ungrateful, because im not. Im so thankful that people enjoy my writing and always want to see more. But there is a line that some people crossed, and thats not okay for me. Believe it or not, the more people asked me to update, the less motivation i had to write. Idk how it works, im not a psychologist, but every time i saw someone act like that i felt like i was forced to write.
Also, its been a year, meaning that by this point ive lost interest in whatever im obsessed with. (this happens alot) they didnt even get together, which gives ALOT more delusion and material to work with, but come on. to be honest, im surprised i continued writing all the way until February. (1/2)
