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My dearest readers. 
          
          I have finally returned from the dead, lol. I hope you are all well. 
          I do have a confession to make. Ateez has always been my ult group. Since discovering them back in 2019-2020, they have been my solace, my safe place, and my inspiration. But since last year, I haven't been following them, as their music just wasn't my personal taste anymore. 
          And there is nothing more painful to an artist and writer than the loss of their muse. I had absolutely no motivation, no inspiration, and no desire to keep up the writing and art. I truly fell into a dark place. This was nothing against Ateez, I was also struggling with this book. I had several nasty comments going on, and as I have previously mentioned, sometimes writing whumpy stories gets hard for me, since I occasionally work with abused children. I don't want to romanticize abuse, but writing these stories helps me through my own personal trauma. 
          Because of the large breaks I take to find new motivation for writing, I also lose a lot of my most faithful commenters. And the comments are what keeps this book alive. So, last year was a very hard year for me. 
          
          But I am trying to get back into Ateez again, even if it is just through their video content and their old songs. I still love the members themselves dearly.  
          
          So for those who stay, thank you so much! For those who post funny and wholesome comments, thank you! 
          
          I just wanted to let you know, I have not forgotten you. I am working on several chapters. If I can get back into writing, I will begin working on the other stories as well. 
          As always, feel  free to give me ideas you would love to see, and I will try to make it happen. It can be as simple as giving me videos of Ateez to watch, so I can gain inspiration. I will work harder!
          
          Love you all!!!

I'm alive and I'm back!
                    	
            Ateez has been updated, and I am already working on the next chapter as well as a SKZ update. 
                    	I am quite disappointed with how little I wrote last year and I hope for a more fruitful 2025! As always, I am looking forward to hearing your suggestions for this year. 
                    	I have one more chapter to go with the current plot, then I am heading back to a more comical light-hearted plot. It's an idea that I've been dying to write for ages!

Please update soon helma we all miss you <3

And it's finally an UPDATE!!!
          
          I am sorry I didn't get to reply to you guys individually, but I want to say thank you! 
          
          I enjoy writing these stories and you guys enjoy reading them, so why should one negative person be allowed to end that? 
          
          On a different note, I hope the chapter makes sense, because it kept saying the chapter had been saved, but not actually saving the progress. And since I had gone back and changed some scenes, I am not sure if it saved those changes or not. And me with my poor memory can't even remember what changes I made, lol.

Can you update soon pretty please 

Hi guys,
          
          This is NOT an update. 
          
          I was very nearly finished the next chapter, when I started getting comments on my book saying I was making Hongjoong as abusive as the manager, and that there was way too much hitting. 
          
          I have always been prepared for "hate" comments as I know this isn't eveyone's cup of tea, but it has made me rethink writing these stories. I began to wonder if I did get too carried away, and if it seemed like I was endorsing abuse. I tried to continue writing, but these comments seemed to block my thoughts and I haven't been able to even bring myself to log into Wattpad until now. 
          
          For the record, I am completely against corporal punishment. I grew up with it, and although I was always extremely against it, spanking fics always fascinated me and were like some sort of relief to stress. Maybe it was because of the comforting after a punishment, as that was never something I had experienced. I feel it is very similar to the hurt/comfort trope that so many people love. 
          
          I chose to write about kpop groups as I have always partially believed there is some truth to this in the real kpop industry. I also found it interesting to explore the emotional and psychological side of this scenario, such as how members would react and how far they would go to stay together. 
          
          I ended up blocking the reader, but I am still trying to get my head around these thoughts.
          
          I feel like the comments may have just been at a bad time, as I was in the middle of writing a kinda iffy scenario (I can't give too many spoilers, but tempers may get long somewhere), and now I am wondering if I have crossed the line. 
          
          Do you think I make the characters get too carried away and that I should tone it down a little? 
          I have read some pretty extreme spanking fics, so I never thought mine were too bad, but now I am really unsure of myself. 
          
          Just let me know your thoughts and I will go on from there.

Update?

when will u update skz ff plz i am waiting

Ateez chapter part 2 is published!
          
          
          Also, why is Wattpad app a green and red strawberry??? 
          
          You have no idea the number of times I've thought I lost the app because I am looking for the orange W. 

See below. I forgot to select announce ‍