Yoon

Hey, Im updating Just Friends tomorrow! I’m looking forward to it since I haven’t been updating in a long time. It took some days to get back to the writingstyle I had, because it’s kinda different. I don’t like when the style suddenly changes, so im trying my best to make it the same way (without it getting boring tho ofc) 
          See ya! 

Hello are you still active in this account??? I hope you'll answer me <3

Funny how you can be at your breaking point and noone notice. That when you have noone to talk to, absolutely no one. That moment when you don’t even care about things that mattered to you. 
          The only thing ive done these past days or should I say weeks is listening to BTS and cry. My panicattacs come here and there and I know I’m sick, I know I need to go to the doctor. But I wanna die in a more natural way. Let me just faint to seem like I died while I was happy. That I had a good life. 
          I know it’s lying but it’s sometimes better than the truth right? Or at least I regret every time I say the truth. 
          Why can’t people like me? What did I do wrong? I don’t understand. Why do I not trust my parents? 
          I wish I could go to Korea alone and start a new life alone but I know I can’t. It’s easier to just get sicker and sicker day by day until I end up dying.  
          The only reason I’m still alive is because I want to go to a bts concert first. But I don’t even know if it’s going to happen with all this corona.
          
          I also know noones reading this and I’ll continue being a loner. Even if you ask to help me I will decline because I made up my mind to die naturally at a early age. 
          
          This is not a cry for help, it’s just a rant, a rant about how nobody likes a nobody. 
          I just wish I was never born, but that isn’t possible, so I’m having a bit of difficulty. 
          I’ll never ever have kids either, never ever in my life. They go trough a lot and they might die because of pollution. Our kids will die in pain, I don’t want that. I don’t want to have kids who will only suffer. 
          A happy moment can turn into a sad moment in matter of a blink of an eye but not the other way around. 
          Ooof I’m sorry for writing this.
          I’m sorry for existing, I’m sorry for everything. 
          
          I will not die now, ill not die tomorrow, so dont care. 
          Im saying its a process that takes months, maybe I get some people to talk to in the meantime? 
          
          I do have a friend I trust but she’s been trough so much, I don’t wanna bother.

I just read this story https://www.wattpad.com/story/208793411-%E3%80%90%EF%BB%BF-d-i-s-t-a-n-c-e-%E3%80%91 by @SadYunkie and I’m bawling my eyes out. Oh God that hurt

I committed to plan 2 and I blocked two of my friends/muted them. LMAOOOOOO OK I can finally fix my profile yay

TW : SH
          Omg, somethings wrong with my wattpad. I only get up terrifying ffs. And I mean terrifying and they all have a terrible ending by either both ending up as murders or running away with his rapist after being in his own funeral. Like I’ve read books and they start explaining how someone cuts their arm and I get extremely nauseous. 
          Just spare me Wattpad, i just wanna read some fluff and smallspace ugh

I’m so done, I wrote a extre long chapter because of Christmas and it got all deleted. I just finished rewriting it and it’s not as good but whatever :(