Night

And i dont mean the clinic

I really want to fucking go right now

I'm scheduled to be stationed at a psychiatric clinic in December

I really want to go to the bts concert I've kept going since I was so young just thinking i have to see bts at least once in my life but I dont know how long i can keep pushing

This family makes me sick

I'm so fucking tired

I can't anymore

Why do I even still come here

How i hate being alive

I've been on a diet for months and I havent lost a single kg literally wtf i track every gram of food i consume, i work out, i get my steps is. How much am I supposed to eat?? 1000? 100? Im trying to be normal and not ed about this