i feel like my mom has ruined reading for me, i used to love reading. i used to stay up every single night binging fan fiction and other chapter books, one time i stayed up a whole 6 hours to finish one all in one sitting. that was before reading was like a chore for me, i just like i said, loved reading. now i struggle to even open up wattpad again or any other book, let alone finish what i read because of her. always nagging me to read, always complaining i dont read anymore, her annoying voice pestering me to do this do that is always in the back of my head when i open up a book and it makes me wanna give up and just never read again. i swear i still like reading, but its so hard to do now when if i do so, it'll make my mom feel like she won or actually succeeded in making me do what she wanted by being really annoying and stupid. excuse me for having an ego, but this has just been a huge problem for me for a while and although i've "convinced" her earlier into how she -should- be reminding me to read and such, she still goes on doing the same things i hate. i just wish i could stay up and read again for hours and hours without such a burden going on in my head. i read to escape the burdens, not to fckin keep thinking about them. geez.