yourdugundugun

I know noone is going to read this but
          	Why I am so into kpop because
          	When I am sad, when everything is against my will, my happiness
          	When everything is a failure, and I feel like one.
          	When darkness start to consume my mind while pretending I am ok because everyone want to see my happy face
          	When I got anxiety because I am afraid If there's always something bad happening tomorrow
          	
          	I can escape
          	Watching BTS, NCT DREAM members laughing
          	It relieves me
          	It makes me feel something
          	Something bright
          	That I deserve to live
          	That I still can stand
          	That I want to life longer

gyuraez

you can pm me if you need someone to talk to! :(
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yourdugundugun

I know noone is going to read this but
          Why I am so into kpop because
          When I am sad, when everything is against my will, my happiness
          When everything is a failure, and I feel like one.
          When darkness start to consume my mind while pretending I am ok because everyone want to see my happy face
          When I got anxiety because I am afraid If there's always something bad happening tomorrow
          
          I can escape
          Watching BTS, NCT DREAM members laughing
          It relieves me
          It makes me feel something
          Something bright
          That I deserve to live
          That I still can stand
          That I want to life longer

gyuraez

you can pm me if you need someone to talk to! :(
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yourdugundugun

I carefully avoid extreme angst and sad ending ff
          Ff is like my escape room when I feel the world is suck and hurts like hell
          Ff gives me chance to forget things that I want to forget
          Like depression, like how my parents yelling at each other, like the burden from becoming the first daughter, like when my lil sis is throwing tantrum
          Is it just my not so happy mind or do anyone else avoid sad ff just like me? To prevent get more sadness?

Ayeshashahed

@yourdugundugun ur welcome always
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yourdugundugun

@AyeshaShahed i was just hit by two really sad ff one yeonbin and one nomin,
            I was having a really terrible day inside out
            I feel guilty because I love the author the way they write so well so pretty but I decide to stop reading
            And thank you fot listening and answering, you made my day a lil bit better ☺
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Ayeshashahed

@yourdugundugun i just had read the last update of it just happen .. and now i needed this .. And no it's not  you only ... i feel the same ❤
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