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yayaya its finally the holidays for me i have like an idea for a book but my writing skills suck sm omd

okay so update on the situation no one asked for: on friday i asked her if we were still gonna go out on sunday she left me on read again and we didnt end up going, then i saw her post on her insta stories and post abt going out with her friends on sunday. like she couldnt just have replied me and said no instead of ghosting me? and then i texted her if shes okay bcs shes been leaving me on read and said that im sorry if i had done anything (i dont think i did but i hope not idk) she just replied “im fine dw” which is so weird bcs we were okay before now shes being dry and leaving me on read out of a sudden?? i dont even know whats happening but i was so excited abt us going out for the whole week since we planned it i was lit daydreaming abt what we were gonna do :( this has happened to me too many times bro im not even that hurt im so confused but yeah i actually have no one

idk how i have 43 followers but hi guys!! <3 anyways omds bro i was supposed to go out with my friend on sunday but shes been leaving me on read since tuesday so idk if we’re still going anymore :( ive lit been daydreaming about whats gonna happen when i go out on sunday and now idek if its even gonna happen and idk why shes leaving me on read :( also i failed all my subjects except english and bio like what

september has been such a crazy month bro like what is even happening with the world i cant wait for swiftober omgg im soo excited

my finals start tmr and i am not prepared at all i spent the entire weekend doing absolutely nothing at all. i literally hate myself so much. i cant wait for them to be over theyll be from tmr till oct 2, just in time for the release of showgirl yayaya. but yeah im hating my life rn

guys my finals are in two weeks i have 8 subjects HOW DO I STUDY FOR THEM PLEASE HELP ME i lit failed all my exams last term and i have to revise the whole syllabus for this year for all my subjects idk how im gonna do it

its september!! september is suicide prevention month, please reach out to someone if youre struggling, its not worth it, things will get better, i love you sm and im always here if anyone needs to talk <3 (i care abt this so so much im trying so hard rn too)

i am actually so depressed but no one sees it bcs im always smiling and laughing all the time. i joke abt ending it multiple times a day, every single day and my family doesnt really care cs i do it all the time, and also they dont believe in mh. but everything is just so sad and depressing i feel so empty im so tired of everything. i havent had actual good sleep bcs im always staying up for no reason and during the day i lit hallucinate and get so dizzy its feels like im high, i drink sm caffeine to stay awake but its not even working, my derealisation is so bad my memory sucks sb. i have lit no friends in sch ice gotten used to it but its so lonely im failing every subject and idk what im gonna do in the future. my parents are so disappointed and mad at me but they dont even know anything thats been going on. i was so close to actually doing it two weeks ago but all the taylor stuff happened lol (anyways pls dont report this or anyt, i just wanted to rant <3)

TAYLOR AND TRAVIS ARE GETTING MARRIED IM FREAKING OUTT IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM AHHHH taylor finally found the one <3 travis keep her this happy forever please i love them sm

OH MY GOD OH MY GOD THE PODCAST?? THEY ARE SO CUTE I LOVE THEM SM