𝒎𝖏𝗹𝒆𝙨 [he/him]

deleting some old stuff

finishing puberty under 5 foot actually sucks
          
          like it’s been more than 4 years why am i still the height of a 9 year old going into highschool with no signs of getting any taller

everytime i check this website i wonder who 80% of the people in my following list are im assuming i spam followed people for their profile pictures bc of how bored i was thats all i remember </3

im finally a freshman guys
          
          im scared for the future but i hope i can live long enough to see it

Dude ur like my first ever follower thats crazy?? Erm... i tthink we met in like a comment section but i forgot uh anyway hi 

i’ve been passing for a few years i lowkey want to make one of those passing tips things here

i’ve been waiting for 5 years and i don’t see any point in the next 5 years where i can buy a binder oml
          
          i found a tutorial on how to sew one ik about the safety stuff i might js sew one since i finally learned

everything about me and around me is getting worse and i dont know how to stop it

the more i think about my life, my situation, and feelings now the more  i feel like i do need help and i hate it so so much
          
          i don’t like admitting to needing help with anything but this is just idk i dont feel safe anywhere and especially with myself its killing me 
          
          i just want someone to talk to with no bias no judgement irl instead of having to watch what i say to the people i talk to online and irl yk
          
          i didnt want it before but now i do think i need that therapist oml
          
          the amount of times ive thought abt committing or releasing recently is killing me thats all i think about after i do something wrong and omg i can’t believe im saying this instead of keeping it in my head
          
          i hate this right now and its gonna get worse i feel

there is one thing i can never truly be for him and becoming it would destroy years of work and my entire identity
          
          ill never be what he truly wants hes just settling for me bc he wants the feeling of a relationship atp and its killing me its been killing me for months and i hate it