@yourrlocalidiott
everything about me and around me is getting worse and i dont know how to stop it
@yourrlocalidiott I'm here if you ever need someone to talk and vent too, I hope things get better for you...
the more i think about my life, my situation, and feelings now the more i feel like i do need help and i hate it so so much
i don’t like admitting to needing help with anything but this is just idk i dont feel safe anywhere and especially with myself its killing me
i just want someone to talk to with no bias no judgement irl instead of having to watch what i say to the people i talk to online and irl yk
i didnt want it before but now i do think i need that therapist oml
the amount of times ive thought abt committing or releasing recently is killing me thats all i think about after i do something wrong and omg i can’t believe im saying this instead of keeping it in my head
i hate this right now and its gonna get worse i feel
there is one thing i can never truly be for him and becoming it would destroy years of work and my entire identity
ill never be what he truly wants hes just settling for me bc he wants the feeling of a relationship atp and its killing me its been killing me for months and i hate it
@yourrlocalidiott I don’t know what you’re going through, but you’re allowed to be confused if he confuses you, but you should always be enough for yourself, not for someone else. But I know this is important to you, to do, but don’t be in a relationship if it makes the other person unhappy.
i’ll never be enough for him and i’ll never be what he wants
even if i change i think he likes me this way i think he likes me not being what he truly wants and it’s making me so goddamn confused
im disgusted by the things ive done for affection
@yourrlocalidiott Isn’t everyone always disgusted at most things they do for affection. People do disgusting things, it’s what makes us human.
happy holidays everyone!!!
Pls update Marcy's journal
tmrws my birthday :[
i still cant believe how ive lived this long considering the amount of stupid and dangerous stuff ive done the past 2 years
i was supposed to die this week (been planning it for years) but my husbands the only one keeps me here atp :(
i love him so much i wish he loved me the way i love him (i want to be w him but he doesnt like me like that </3)
this year is insane i swear (will prolly do a summary near new years or smth idkk)
i am never beating the femboy allegations </3
hi guys
it’s been so long since i’ve been on this acc </3
so much has changed i swear
im enjoying band and forensics :3
and i got into a fwb relationship thing i dont even know what to call it atp—
@ThatWeirdoKitty hihi !! ive been doing well :3 im kinda drinking more water and sleeping decently xD hope ur doing well too !!
@yourrlocalidiott Omg it’s been so long! How are you? You drinking enough water? You get enough sleep? I’m happy you’re enjoying band and forensics! And as long as your fwb (or smth) is all consensual and healthy I’m happy for you <3
when you friend your friend so hard people start asking if you're dating xD
@yourrlocalidiott real I've been asked so many times if me and my friend are dating bcuz she holds my hand [we both have bad social anxiety and it helps us] and we're always hanging out whenever we get the chance